Category: Birth

  • Entering the sacred pause: what I’m learning about rest before I prepare to birth my new book.

    Entering the sacred pause: what I’m learning about rest before I prepare to birth my new book.

    Sometimes the most profound wisdom comes from practicing what we preach. As my book launch approaches, I find myself in a familiar space—one I’ve guided countless women through as a doula, but now must navigate myself.

    The limbo before the birth

    Lately I’ve been feeling in a sort of limbo-in between 2 worlds. The prelaunch of my book is looming (a week days to go), so I’m busy doing a lot of behind the scenes stuff and I’m also having a completely new website built over the summer to reflect my new focus.

    I’ve been having not so positive feelings of lack of “doing”, lack of “putting things out there”, I even have just had to cancel 2 in person courses due to lack of bookings (something that’s not happened like this ever before), and a general sense of lack of direction. I’ve had to work at reminding myself that there is rich fertile soil in period of fallowness and void. But in a culture that glorifies busy and “productivity”, even though it’s been over 8 years that I’ve started my journey of reclamation of spaciousness within, it’s still something I struggle with.

    So the last few days I’ve been surrendering as much as I can, and making a point to do things that give me joy, such as swimming in the river (which is wonderful as we’re having a heatwave in the UK right now)

    One of the things several people I work with have told me is to trust the process of where the book launch is going to take me-somewhere completely new. It’s scary to trust this at time, even though I can feel the energy of what’s coming and it’s f*cking huge.

    When I chose to publish my new book with Womancraft Publishing, what attracted me most to them was their values of women supporting women.

    So in preparation for the launch, I’ve been busy recording a bunch of conversations about Women Making Noise (reclaiming our right to make noise).

    In one of these conversations yesterday we talked about the “limbo” that women experience in the days before they go into labour. I know this, yes, I’m familiar with supporting this as a doula, I told myself, this is what I’m experiencing now. I should heed my own wisdom.

    This morning, out of these conversations, I’ve been offered to come and run a bunch of events in Brighton (and down the line maybe even some retreats), and in another we’re started to put in place the process of doing published research on what drumming does for women. This feels so exciting! My heart sings at the prospect of doing many new (ground breaking) things in this field.

    Learning to trust the void

    But for now I wait. I wait and try to surrender, telling myself the things I used to tell myself when waiting for my ā€œoverdueā€ baby to arrive, and the pregnant women when they entered their ā€œin between timeā€. I have plenty of experience supporting this time, and I also experienced it for myself, as a doula, whilst waiting for labour to start.

    This week, I was struck by listening to another Womancraft author, Coco Oya -Cienna-Rey, in her episode of the Creative Magic podcast. Her book is published today. In the podcast Coco said that after the publication she was going to take the summer off. Then it became very clear that I needed to do something similar.

    When my first book, Why Postnatal Recovery Matters, was published in 2020, I did not understand that, after riding the wave of the publication, after the flurry of the launch, the signing and posting hundreds of books, writing articles etc, after all the excitement, I would crash and experience a long fallow period. And crash I did, spectacularly. I did not understand the natural cycles of growth and decay, of birth and death, of summer and winter, the way I am now. I felt extremely guilty and uncomfortable in that state, because I was unconsciously driven by modern society’s belief that productivity = worth. I could not understand what one of my drum sisters said about the need for me to acknowledge the enormity of what I’d done and receive the book. The irony for someone whose book was about postpartum recovery!

    Giving myself permission to pause

    In the past, I also wrote about the importance of resting before birth, and of the importance of resting after birthing a project. So this time (thank you, Coco!) I am going to heed my own wisdom and give myself the gift of rest and recovery, before the big launch and busyness that will accompany it.

    Because it’s true. I’m due to have a baby soon. Not a physical baby, but I’m ā€œgiving birthā€ to my new book. It’s been a long gestation, with conception starting over 2 years ago, the process of writing, then editing and correcting the book, and finally the ā€œbabyā€ will soon be ready to be born. It will not arrive in physical form until the 12th of September, but pre-ordering (which comes with a bunch of goodies exclusive to people who are pre-ordering), is only a week away, on the 27th of June. I’ll share as soon as it becomes available. You could say I’m entering my 3rd trimester.

    Ā Between now and the Autumn all of my energy is going to be focused on preparing for the birth, in supporting this new baby in entering the world and then in sharing and nurturing it. I will need to slow down, need to recover from birthing, and nurture myself too.Ā 

    Therefore I will not be offering any new courses or programs in the next 2 to 3 months. However, my many pre-recorded courses , webinars, and workshops are still available (scroll down for these below, these include many drum based trainings).Ā 

    I would also love to support women who feel called to the drum but do not know how to start or want to overcome procrastination or impostor syndrome through my mentoring sessions.

    Here’s some short excerpts from the book:

    • The many women I have drummed for during pregnancies, birth and postpartum, during difficult life transitions, loss, trauma, grief, illness, accidents, changes of circumstances, end of relationships and more, have told me that the drum spoke to something deep within them, something they recognised: a remembering. They spoke of feeling like they were inside of a temple, of feeling their ancestors around them, of being reminded of their strength, of receiving powerful messages of guidance from within, including messages from goddesses and the divine feminine.
    • As we drum, we don’t just think differently – we experience the world differently. This altered state of being opens doorways to new perspectives, al- lowing us to imagine and embody alternatives to the limiting narratives that have been unconsciously programmed into us. In essence, drumming doesn’t just challenge the system – it transports us beyond it, offering an experience of what true autonomy and connection feel like.
    • Drumming, because of its ability to modify our state of consciousness, can help us get out of a rational, masculine-centric way of thinking and re-learn how to access a more intuitive, more feminine way of knowing. Drumming can provide an antidote, not only to the ever-increasing speed and business of our world, but also to the systematic destruction of women’s power and autonomy.

    And a video of me reading another excerpt:

    Conclusion

    This limbo, this in-between time, is teaching me that the pause before emergence is as sacred as the emergence itself. Just as I’ve witnessed with the women I’ve supported, this waiting isn’t empty time—it’s a space where something beautiful is preparing to unfold.

    I’m choosing to trust the process, to honour the natural rhythms of creation and rest, and to model what I’ve long taught others: that our worth isn’t measured by our productivity, but by our willingness to dance with the ever moving energies within us.

    Does this resonate? Do you experience discomfort during periods of fallowness? If yes I’d love to hear from you-just comment below.

    If you’re feeling called to the drum but don’t know how to start, or if you’re struggling with impostor syndrome around your own emergence, I’d love to support you through individual mentoring sessions.

    Ready to begin your own drumming journey? Explore my pre-recorded courses and workshops below, including drum-based training that will help you access your own inner wisdom and power.

    Mark your calendars: Pre-orders for my new book open on June 27th, with exclusive goodies for early supporters. I’ll share the link as soon as it’s available—this book baby is almost ready to meet the world, and I can’t wait to share it with you.

    Sometimes the most revolutionary act is to rest.

    Pre-recorded online courses (clickable titles)

      • How to use shamanic drumming to support the birth journey.
      • A beautiful rebozo massage ritual to nurture and heal new mothers.
      • Rebozo techniques to facilitate a easier birth, pregnancy, and postpartum period.
      • Learn how to wrap the belly and hips after birth.
      • How to run a ceremony to celebrate pregnancy and prepare for the postpartum

    Pre-recorded workshops

      • Feel safe and confident and offer your gifts to the world
      • Break Free from Procrastination with the Power of the Drum
      • Learn ADHD-specific strategies that work with your brain
  • Forbidden trance: why medicine hijacks altered consciousness during birth

    Forbidden trance: why medicine hijacks altered consciousness during birth

    Imagine a woman in labour, her eyes closed, swaying rhythmically to an internal beat. The room is dim, quiet, save for her deep, primal moans. Suddenly, she says: “I can see my baby. She’s coming down” This isn’t a scene from a mystical novel. This is Sarah, a first-time mother, experiencing what scientists are now calling the “birth trance” – a profound altered state of consciousness that modern medicine has been suppressing for decades.

    In hospitals across the world, 80% of labouring women are subjected to interventions that disrupt this natural altered state. But what if I told you that this suppressed “birth trance” holds the key not only to easier, more empowering births, but to unlocking the untapped potential of the human mind?

    As a former biologist turned birth & life transitions guide, I’ve witnessed first hand the transformative power of this altered state. I’ve seen women transcend pain, communicate with their unborn children, and tap into strength they never knew they had. And now, cutting-edge research is finally catching up to what midwives and doulas have known for millennia.

    Welcome to the forbidden world of birth consciousness – a realm where science meets spirituality, and where the act of bringing life into the world can quite literally alter the fabric of reality. What you’re about to read will forever change the way you think about the human capacity for transcendence.Ā 

    Introduction

    When you hear “altered states of consciousness,” what pops into your mind? Psychedelic trips, mushrooms, ayahuasca? But what if I told you we’re all walking pharmacies, carrying within us the very tools – birth hormones – to alter our consciousness without any external substances? What if I told you that birth is one of the most powerful times when these hormones work together to facilitate one of the deepest shifts in consciousness during a woman’s life?

    I’ve just finished writing a book about drumming as a catalyst for women’s growth. One chapter delves into how drumming stacks up against psychedelics in inducing trance-like states. Spoiler alert: drumming is not only safer and easier, but it’s every bit as powerful.Ā 

    When I first introduced drumming as a birth support tool, it was pure intuition that guided me. But as I dove into writing, interviewing women I’d drummed for during birth, and poring over research on how drumming shifts our consciousness, a startling reality emerged: birth itself IS an altered state of consciousness. Modern maternity care actively disrupts this natural high, because it’s impossible to control women in this state.Ā 

    Birth as a naturally altered state

    During labour and birth, a cocktail of hormones floods the mother’s brain and body, particularly oxytocin, endorphins, and prolactin. These neurochemicals not only facilitate the physical process of birth but also induce a dreamlike state of mind. Many women report feeling disconnected from their usual thought patterns, experiencing time distortion, and accessing a deep, primal, instinctual part of themselves.Ā 

    Anybody who has supported births knows when this happens, because the woman stops engaging in conversation and goes inwards. This usually happens when labour becomes established.

    This shift in consciousness serves a biological purpose, allowing the birthing woman to focus intensely on the task at hand. It is described as “labourland” or being “in the birth zone.” The altered state contributes to pain management, as endorphins act as natural painkillers, as well as changing the perception of time and space. This heightened state of awareness can also lead to spiritual or transcendent experiences, with some women describing a sense of connection to a greater power or to generations of birthing women before them.Ā 

    Understanding birth as an altered state emphasises the importance of creating a supportive, undisturbed environment that allows this natural process to unfold, leading to more positive birth experiences and outcomes.

    The physiology of birth-induced altered consciousness

    Hormonal changes during labour and birth

    When a woman goes into labour, her body is a living, breathing symphony of hormones. As the first contractions begin, oxytocin takes centre stage. Also known as the love hormone, it’s the conductor of this miraculous orchestra. It sends powerful waves through her uterus, gently but persistently encouraging her baby to begin its journey. But oxytocin isn’t just about physical labour – it’s weaving a web of love and connection, preparing the mother’s heart to fall in love with her baby.

    As the labour intensity builds, endorphins build up. These natural pain-relievers sweep through the mother’s body like a soothing tide. They don’t just dull the pain; they bring with them a sense of euphoria, a feeling of “I can do this!” It’s these endorphins that help guide the mother into the famous “labourland” – a state of altered consciousness where time seems to bend and the outside world fades away.

    As labour progresses, a new player enters – catecholamines, the stress hormones. Early in labour, they’re like cautious gatekeepers. If the mother feels threatened or unsafe, these hormones pump the brakes on labour. But as birth approaches, they transform into enthusiastic cheerleaders, delivering a surge of energy just when the mother needs it most. It’s nature’s way of giving her that final push (pun intended!) to bring her baby earthside.

    All the while, prolactin is working its magic behind the scenes. This mothering hormone begins to peak as labour starts naturally, whispering to every cell in the mother’s body, “Get ready” It’s laying the groundwork for breastfeeding and nudging the mother’s brain towards instinctive nurturing behaviours.

    Together, these hormones alter the mother’s state of consciousness, helping her turn inward and find strength she never knew she had. They change how she perceives pain, sometimes transforming it into intense sensation or even pleasure. They forge the beginnings of an unbreakable bond between mother and child.

    But this dance is delicate. It thrives in calm, dark, private environments where the mother feels safe and is supported by familiar people. It prefers to begin on its own terms, free from unnecessary interventions. It loves intuitive movement and positions that let gravity lend a helping hand.

    Labour is an intricate hormonal ballet, a dance as old as humanity itself, guiding a new life into the world and a woman into motherhood.Ā 

    Brain waves changes

    Besides the hormones, there are also changes in brain waves. There is an increase in alpha and theta waves – the same patterns we see in deep meditation or hypnosis. The brain is tuning out the external world and tuning into the body’s innate wisdom.

    This altered state isn’t unique to birth. It’s fascinatingly similar to other naturally occurring altered states. Think about the calm, focused state of a seasoned meditator, or the state of someone under deep hypnosis. Labour taps into these same neural pathways.

    Going into labourland is not just a turn of phrase. It’s a real, physiologically measurable altered state of consciousness.Ā 

    The Experience of Altered Consciousness During Birth

    Published research on the topic

    When I started looking into this I quickly realised that, unsurprisingly given the focus of modern maternity culture, there is almost no published research on the subject of the change of consciousness during birth. There are various people who have written about this state in books and online articles, including Ina May Gaskin, Sarah Buckley, and Hazel Tree in her book A birth path. Jane Hardwicke Collings has written about it in her blog. Jane also mentioned to me that studies done in Russia (we were not able to find this available online), have included measuring brain waves during labour.

    • The pain of labour is a gateway to an altered state of consciousness and ecstatic birth. Jane Hardwicke Collings
    • Brain waves slow even more, she may reach the deepest place of delta waves, the oneness of ecstatic bliss and complete unity. Hazel Tree

    There is also a blog article by midwife Whapio Diane Bartlett which describes the stages of birth from a holistic/consciousness point of view.Ā 

    • This may be the pinnacle of the altered state. Brainwaves may shift to Delta, the slowest and deepest of our known patterns, which allows us access to the realms of the unconscious…the realms of profound knowing, meditative understanding and peak experiences. This is the realm of transformation. Whapio Diane Bartlett

    I found a handful of articles mentioning altered states of consciousness during birth. A review paper from 2018 called Women’s psychological experiences of physiological childbirth: a metasynthesis, mentions altered states of consciousness and differences in time perception: ā€œThe peaks of endogenous oxytocin during labour, together with the progressive release of endorphins in the maternal brain, are likely to cause the altered state of consciousness most typical of unmedicated labour that midwives and mothers easily recognise or describe as ā€˜labour land’, but this phenomenon has received little attention from neuropsychology.ā€

    Another paper from 2020, Birth as a neuro-psycho-social event: An integrative model of maternal experiences and their relation to neurohormonal events during childbirth, states that ā€œThe spontaneous altered state of consciousness, that some women experience, may well be a hallmark of physiological childbirth in humans. ā€œ and “This description of womenĀ“s experiences during labor and birth and its potential for transformation resembles descriptions of mystical states of consciousness. Classically these states have been achieved through meditation and religious practices (including dancing, praying and fasting) or through intake of substances with hallucinogenic properties such as psilocybin or LSD

    Until very recently, the scientific community had largely overlooked the unique state of consciousness experienced by women during labour. The first person to publish a paper specifically about birth consciousness was Israeli researcher Dr Orli Dahan, in 2021. Dr Danan has published 11 papers on the subject since. I published an article about how drumming supports birth and altered states of consciousness in the International of birth and parenting education in 2023. This was the first time that an article was published about drumming and birth in a scientific journal.

    The emergence of these papers is no coincidence; they are a reflection of our evolving understanding and readiness to explore new depths of human experience. It’s as if humanity has reached a tipping point, finally prepared to embrace truths that were previously ignored. This convergence of expanded awareness and scientific inquiry signals a new era in our understanding of birth, consciousness, and the nature of humanity.

    According to Dahan’s theory of “birthing consciousness,” the mother’s brain enters an extraordinary state, unlike anything she’s experienced before. It’s as if nature has designed a special mindset just for this moment, one that will support her through the intensity of birth and lead to better outcomes.

    Dahan’s research paints an intriguing picture. The usually chatty prefrontal cortex – the part of our brain responsible for complex thinking and self-control – takes a back seat. Blood flow to this area decreases, its activity diminishes. It’s like the logical, inhibited part of the brain is stepping aside, allowing something more primal and instinctive to take the wheel.

    This shift isn’t just about getting through labour; it’s about thriving. Dahan argues that this altered state not only helps the mother navigate the physical challenges of birth but also opens the door to profound positive emotional experiences. It’s as if the brain is creating the perfect conditions for not just survival, but for a transformative journey.

    These changes might not be a fleeting phenomenon. Dahan points to studies in rats showing that the experience of birth leaves a lasting imprint. Mother rats who’ve given birth show increased resilience to stress, an effect that persists well into their twilight years. Could human mothers experience similar long-term benefits?

    Dahan’s work doesn’t stop at theory. She’s also explored practical factors that might influence birthing consciousness. Something as simple as softer lighting in hospital rooms, for instance, has been linked to fewer medical interventions. It’s a reminder that the environment we create for birthing women can have profound effects on their experiences.

    For all these insights, Dahan is the first to admit we’re just scratching the surface. She points out a glaring gap in our knowledge – to date, no one has conducted direct research on the neuropsychological state of women during natural or medicated birth. It’s a call to action for the scientific community.

    The potential implications of this research are vast. Understanding birthing consciousness could revolutionise how we approach birth, leading to better outcomes for women and their families.Ā  One thing is clear: the journey to understand birthing consciousness is just beginning.Ā 

    Benefits of allowing this natural state to unfoldĀ 

    Supporting birth consciousness during labour and birth can have several important benefits:

    Enhanced coping with labour pain and stress:

    • High endorphin levels during labour can produce an altered state of consciousness that helps women deal with the process of giving birth, even if it is long and challenging .
    • The “birthing consciousness” state is described as a healthy dissociative state that can reduce pain perception as labour progresses .

    Promotion of physiological birth processes:

    • Allowing women to enter an altered state of consciousness during labour may be a hallmark of physiological childbirth in humans .
    • It can help optimise the release and effects of beneficial hormones like oxytocin that facilitate labour progress .

    Improved maternal experience and satisfaction:

    • Women who experience physiological natural childbirth often describe it as a transcendent experience .
    • It can lead to feelings of euphoria and empowerment after birth .

    Enhanced bonding and postpartum adaptation:

    • The altered state may strengthen the mother-infant relationship in the early postpartum period .
    • High endorphin levels can make mothers feel alert and attentive as they begin to care for their newborn .

    Reduced need for medical interventions:

    • Supporting natural hormonal processes and altered consciousness may reduce the need for interventions that can interfere with labour progress .

    Long-term psychological benefits:

    • The birthing experience can generate feelings of joy and awe that may be life-altering, enhancing self-esteem and boosting energy .

    Potential for personal growth:

    • Experiencing birth consciousness may offer an opportunity for immense personal growth.

    Note: The transformative power of trance states extends far beyond the birthing room, offering women a profound tool for growth and healing throughout their lives. Altered states of consciousness serve as gateways to deep inner wisdom, facilitating smoother transitions during pivotal life changes such as puberty, menopause, career shifts, and other endings and beginnings. Moreover, trance states have shown remarkable potential in healing trauma. By accessing these heightened states of awareness, women can safely revisit and reprocess traumatic experiences, allowing for deep emotional release and restructuring of neural pathways. Whether induced through meditation, breathwork, or rhythmic activities like drumming, trance experiences create a sacred space where women can shed old identities, embrace new aspects of themselves, and emerge renewed. In essence, trance states offer a powerful, natural method for women to navigate life’s challenges, foster personal growth, and reclaim their innate power and wisdom.

    My experience of birth trance

    When I gave birth to my first child at home (something which was unexpected, as a short few months before I was extremely scared of birth. Hiring a doula helped change this society imposed belief), I plunged into the depths of an altered state of consciousness. It wasn’t just during the birth itself – it was afterwards that its transformative effects truly became obvious. I was on a high from the experience, feeling euphoric, like I could achieve anything. This feeling lasted for weeks, and even now, over 18 years later, I can still tap into this experience as one of the empowering experiences of my life.

    Not only did I feel amazing, but there was a distinct feeling that the world around me had shifted; everything looked and felt different, brighter, more vibrant. This altered state lingered for days, as if my brain had been completely rewired by the experience.

    This shift sparked a complete change in my career trajectory. When my son was just 4 months old, I found myself at a Birthlight birth conference, rubbing shoulders with birth legends like Ina May Gaskin, Michel Odent, and Frederic Leboyer. It was there that a woman said something to me that still echoes in my mind: “Our society doesn’t want women to have transformative experiences like yours – because look at you now.”

    Her words really hit me. I knew exactly what she meant. Women who’ve experienced births like mine no longer fit neatly into society’s mould. We’ve glimpsed something powerful, something primal, and it changes us. We become harder to control, less likely to blindly follow the status quo. It’s as if the birth experience awakens an untamed part of ourselves that society would rather keep dormant.

    My journey from that homebirth to the conference and my leaving my scientific job behind to support women in achieving positive birth experiences was more than just a change in career – it was a radical shift in consciousness, a rebirth of my own. And I realised that this transformation, this awakening, is precisely what makes such birth experiences so potent – and perhaps, so threatening.

    Stories from women about this altered state during birth

    In the middle phase of my labour I was very much in an altered state of consciousness, the closest experience I could connect it to was doing ayahuasca in the Peruvian jungle years before, I was very grateful for that actually because it gave me the confidence to be able to surrender into it and trust that state which is so unlike our waking life. When I was in the birth pool in the dark lit only by our fire and fairy lights I felt like I literally became a mermaid submerged in the dark waters. It was so sensual and my mind completely fell away. I had this strong sense of making love to pain, literally like it was this sensual union with discomfort and the opening of my body! Amelia

    A nice element of my birth for me is completely losing the sense of time. My birth, as beautiful as it was, had quite the intensity too, so not having the sense of time was glorious….and after I gave birth to my baby, I honestly don’t know what day of the week it was or whether it was night or day. Somebody could have told me we are in a different month or year and I honestly wouldn’t know if they’re telling the truth or not. Magdalena

    I actively spoke with and received answers from the divine/God/universe, while birthing my third child. Sophia

    I had an out of body experience too . I met with my deceased best friend and twins and landed in my body as my daughter was born. Alice

    As my doula arrived and rubbed my lower back it was like I levitated above the scene. Husband behind in the doorway to the left, nervously watching. Two midwives preparing tools and equipment, listening to my guttural birth noise.Ā  Then lightness and lift as I was just watching myself do the thing. I have no recollection of the crowning. Baby cried before the shoulders were out. No feelings in the body but just watching it all occur around like a scene in a film. It was like there was something I could not be present in my body for. Like I had to go and get her soul before I could ground again. Spiritually it moved me to a new level of understanding of source and connection that wouldn’t be fully understood until years later. When I reflect on the experience now it’s clear to me that what I experienced was a leaving of the human body and into the soul space. What needed to happen through this birth was a disconnection from all that was to carve a new path. Lorna

    Most of my 6h labour was at home with no midwife, just my doula. I put on headphones with relaxing music and it went like that until the delivery. Midwife got there 10-15min before my baby was born. He was my second and this was a planned home birth. I was totally in the zone with my headphones, no interruptions. Just completely present with the sensations in my body and I’ve embraced the overwhelm of each wave of contraction with my deep breaths. Having the headphones, being at home, no interruptions was essential to be in my bubble.. almost as if I were by myself in a dark cave but very safe.Ā  Cristina

    I was pleased in a way the midwife didn’t arrive because I got to have my journey in peace but at the same time, having worked with midwives that actively support this, having seen the difference it makes for a woman in labour, I felt sad I didn’t have one there to hold the space and very very grateful I went with my instinct and against COVID regulations and got my doula to be there for me. I had visions, time elapsed. I was both very much in my body, in the room, and at the same time somewhere else. I was everything and everywhere at the same time that I was nothing but flesh and blood and bones. I was absolutely eternal and inescapably mortal. Laura

    Part of my birth trance was becoming love, an overwhelming feeling of being a portal of love. It flowed out. I grew to 10 foot high and was the goddess of my world. I remember thinking ‘I AM love’. It was f#*kING awesome. Rosie

    Time is different. Looking back at video footage of my homebirth, I remember what was happening but I felt I was in a different “place/time”. It’s hard to describe. Lynsey

    From breaking my waters and walking in a field full of damselflies, I became quickly held in a space of becoming and transition. I could feel there was a total coming together of my voice as I toned out sounds, and found my ebb and flow. The connection with my body and my baby and the powerful rite of passage in my own home, with our beautiful doula and two respectful, tuned-in midwives enabled me, in our tiny living room, to create safety and a net of power. My body, at age 40, found an inner strength and there was no room for anything other than what I can only describe as being in a different realm of consciousness and dreaming, where the space I held was one of protectors and the one being initiated, truly sacred space. It is the greatest honour and biggest achievement of my life to have brought my boys (my oldest one 7 years before) into the world in this way, and joy. Angie

    I blended with the universe . I found a focal point which was a painting . It became my force . Anything else just became part of me as my baby was born and came into the world seamlessly. Hayet.

    My consciousness was circling upwards at the top of my head and I met and merged with my son’s consciousness and brought him into the physical reality. Ailsa

    What fascinates me in the collection of stories above, is that several women describe experiencing an out of body experience. This state is also known to be associated with death, or near death experiences. In the book DMT: The Spirit Molecule, author Rick Strassman hypotheses that the release of the natural psychedelic DMT by our brain may play a role in these, and other mystical experiences. There is also emerging evidence that the endocannabinoid systems plays a role in labour and birth at uterine level, and whilst effects on the brain haven’t yet been studies, I would not be surprised if they played a role too.

    How and why medicine interrupts the birth Trance

    Common practices that disrupt the natural state

    • Being cared for by people you have not met before:Ā  It’s challenging to relax and enter that birth zone state when you’re constantly meeting new people.
    • Having a constant, familiar presence – like a doula or midwife you already know before the first – can make a world of difference. It’s like having your personal coach throughout your entire marathon, cheering you on every step of the way.
    • Change of support person during shifts/ lack of continuity of care: Just as you’ve built a rapport with one care provider, their shift ends. It’s like changing coaches mid-game – disruptive and potentially unsettling.
    • Having to travel to an unfamiliar environment during labour: Trading your cosy home nest for a clinical environment can be jarring. It’s like trying to meditate in an airport – possible, but not ideal for entering that altered state of consciousness.
    • Bright lights and loud noises: Bright lights, beeping machines, unfamiliar smells and noises – it’s a far cry from the calm, dimly lit environment that supports birth consciousness. It’s like trying to sleep with a spotlight in your face and a rock concert next door.
    • Frequent interventions and examinations : Frequent examinations and interventions can disrupt the natural flow of labour. It’s like constantly checking your watch during meditation – it breaks your concentration.
    • Time pressure and expectations of progress : Labour doesn’t always follow a schedule, but hospital protocols often expect it to. It’s like having a countdown clock on your marathon – not exactly relaxing.
    • Use of pain medication and epidurals : Often offered as a first resort rather than part of a range of coping strategies, pain medication can interfere with the natural hormonal process of labour. It’s like taking a shortcut in your marathon – it might make things easier, but you might miss out on the full experience.
    • [Note: Pain relief can be necessary and beneficial for some women. The issue is not its existence, but how it’s presented and used.]Ā 
    • Not being able to make informed decisions: Many women aren’t fully informed about their options or the potential impacts of various interventions. It’s like running a race without knowing the course – you can do it, but you’re at a disadvantage.
    • Restrictive guidelines and one size fits all approach: Women are often pressured to consent to interventions based on an average population instead of their own unique circumstances. Recognising that every birth, like every woman, is unique. It’s about tailoring the experience to support individual needs and preferences, not following a one-size-fits-all protocol.

    Why modern maternity care actively disrupt the birth trance

    The idea that our culture unconsciously interrupts the “birth trance” to exert control is rooted in the larger context of how power dynamics and social norms influence birth. It can be broken down into several aspects:

    • Medicalisation of birth: Modern cultures, particularly in the West, have increasingly medicalised birth, shifting it from a natural process to a highly managed, clinical event. This medicalisation is often framed as being for safety, but it also transfers power and authority away from the birthing person to medical professionals. The “birth trance”—a deeply instinctual, altered state of consciousness many women enter during labour—can be disrupted by interventions like bright lights, frequent monitoring, and verbal instructions. These actions interrupt the natural rhythm of labour, reducing the birthing woman’s autonomy and reliance on their own bodily wisdom, effectively placing control in the hands of others.
    • Cultural anxiety around surrender and vulnerability: Birth is a profoundly vulnerable and intense process that requires a certain surrender to one’s body and instincts. Our culture tends to be uncomfortable with states of surrender, especially when it comes to women’s bodies. Society often encourages control, predictability, and structure. Medical protocols, constant monitoring, and interventions—though presented as necessary—also reflect a cultural bias toward controlling a process that might otherwise appear chaotic or unpredictable.
    • Fear of female power: The birth trance represents a powerful state where women can experience immense physiological and psychological transformation. Patriarchal structures have often sought to suppress expressions of female power, particularly in relation to childbirth, which is an inherently female, and thus potentially threatening, experience to male-dominated systems of power. By interrupting this trance, cultural norms may unconsciously aim to suppress the power women hold in this deeply primal moment, reinforcing existing hierarchies where medical professionals or institutions hold authority over women’s bodies.
    • Disconnection from nature and instinct: Modern society places high value on intellect and technology, at the expense of intuition and nature. The birth trance is an instinctual, bodily experience that connects a woman deeply to her natural rhythms and ancestral wisdom. By interrupting this process, society reinforces a cultural disconnection from the body and nature. This serves to maintain control over birth by privileging external, scientific authority over internal, intuitive knowledge.
    • Economics and efficiency: Hospitals and medical systems are structured around efficiency and managing large volumes of patients, often within tight timeframes. Allowing women to enter a natural birth trance, which can slow labour down and make it less predictable, conflicts with these priorities. As a result, interventions like labour induction, c-sections, and other forms of control are encouraged to keep the process on a manageable timetable. This commodification of birth serves institutional needs at the expense of the woman’s natural process, further reinforcing a culture of control.

    Towards a more conscious approach to maternity care

    To support birth consciousness, we need to

    • Provide a calm, comfortable, homely, dimly light, quiet, and private birthing environmentĀ 
    • Minimise disturbances and unnecessary interventionsĀ 
    • Offer continuity of care and one-on-one support from caregivers familiar to the mother, whose presence she finds soothing.
    • Recognise and promote homebirth as a valid, normal and empowering choice
    • Foster a supportive emotional atmosphere that promotes feelings of safety and trust
    • Encourage and respect the mother’s intuition and bodily wisdom
    • Offer non-pharmacological pain management techniques that work with the altered state (relaxation, hypnobirthing, breathwork, massage, music, scents, drumming…)
    • Educate birth professionals and women about the states of consciousness during birth and how to support them
    • Minimise cognitive stimulation and questions during labour, allowing the mother to stay in her trance state
    • Train birth partners to support and enhance the birth trance state
    • Implement policies that allow for flexibility in birth plans and timelines, respecting the unique rhythm of each labour
    • Create a culture of reverence for the transformative nature of the birth experience

    These are unlikely to happen in the current model of care. The practices that support birth consciousness are at odds with many aspects of the current model of care. Today’s maternity services prioritise efficiency, standardisation, and risk management over individualised, woman-centred care.Ā  Hospital environments are typically clinical rather than homely, care is often fragmented rather than continuous, and interventions are frequently routine rather than minimised. The medicalisation of birth has overshadowed the profound psycho-emotional and spiritual aspects of the birthing process.

    Supporting birth trance: a practical guide for birth workers

    In our modern culture, the deep altered state of consciousness that occurs during birth remains largely unrecognised. Maternity care protocols often actively disrupt this natural phenomenon, unaware of its significance. As birth workers, our primary responsibility is twofold:

    1. Self-education: Immerse yourself in the research and writings of pioneers in birth consciousness (as referenced in the scientific section of this article). Develop a deep understanding of how to facilitate and protect this altered state.
    2. Client education: This is crucial, and it must go beyond mere information sharing, as experiential learning is key.

    For clients unfamiliar with altered states, providing multiple hands-on experiences during pregnancy is paramount. Theoretical knowledge alone is insufficient; lived experiences are essential for true comprehension.

    Offer regular opportunities to experience trance-like states, depending on what appeals most to your clients and what you feel comfortable offering:

    • Guided meditation/relaxation
    • Hypnobirthing scripts
    • Conscious movement (such as 5rhythms dancing or pregnancy specific dance)
    • Drum-assisted journeys (recorded or live)

    Drum-facilitated meditations are particularly effective. Research shows that rhythmic auditory entrainment significantly eases access to deep trance states compared to meditation alone. (See my published paper on drumming and birth for scientific backing). You can find pregnancy and birth focused drum journeys on both my Youtube Channel, and on Jane Hardwicke Collings ā€˜s Youtube channel.

    Guide clients in creating optimal birthing environments that support the trance state:

    • Emphasise the importance of dim lighting, privacy, and a quiet and cosy atmosphere, in the context of protecting the birth trance
    • Help develop strategies to maintain this environment in various birth settings (some of my client chose to wear noise cancelling headphones and eye masks)
    • Assist in articulating these preferences in birth plan documents

    Educate partners on their critical role as guardians of the birth trance, emphasising their importance in minimising disruptions and maintaining a protective space.

    While challenging, attempt to educate medical professionals about birth consciousness. Be prepared for resistance, but remember that even small shifts in understanding can lead to significant changes over time.

    During the birth: your role as a gatekeeper is crucial. Every action and decision should be made with awareness of its potential impact on the birthing woman’s altered state.

    Flexibility is key: Remember that each birth and mother is unique. Remain adaptable and acutely attuned to the individual needs of each woman. Your ultimate goal is to create and fiercely protect the sacred space where the birth trance can naturally unfold, empowering the mother to access her innate birthing wisdom.

    By embracing this approach, we not only support individual births but also contribute to a broader shift in birth culture, honouring the profound psychological and spiritual dimensions of this transformative life event.

    A vision for the future

    However, there is reason for hope. There is a growing awareness and a gradual shift in understanding birth as more than just a medical event. This shift is happening on multiple fronts:

    • Consumer demand: More women are becoming informed about their birth options and are advocating for more supportive, individualised, less interventionist care.
    • Education: Childbirth educators,Ā  doulas and conscious midwives are playing a crucial role in informing women about the importance of the birth environment and their own innate capabilities.
    • Research: More studies are exploring the psychological and physiological benefits of supportive birth practices, and the change of consciousness during birth
    • Policy changes: Some healthcare systems are beginning to implement policies that support more woman-centred care, including continuity of care models.
    • Integration of complementary therapies: Many maternity units are now more open to incorporating complementary therapies that can support birth consciousness, such as hypnobirthing techniques, aromatherapy, and the use of music or rhythmic sounds.

    I know this may sound naive in the face of a severely underfunded and understaffed maternity care system, with closure of home birth teams and birth centres, and the ever increasing rate of interventions, and tightening of regulations. We should never underestimate the power of a few determined individuals to affect change. Also remember that, when you push the pendulum too far one way, it also eventually swings back the other way.

    While systemic change may be slow, every small step towards supporting birth consciousness is valuable. Each woman who experiences a birth where her consciousness is honoured and supported becomes an advocate for change. Each healthcare provider who learns about and respects birth consciousness can influence their colleagues and institution.

    The concept of a tipping point – that moment when a series of small changes or incidents becomes significant enough to cause a larger, more important change – is particularly relevant to the revolution in birth consciousness. Research shows that, for a new idea to be embraced exponentially, we only need about 17% of the population to know about it. We may be approaching such a tipping point in maternity care. As more women experience and share their stories of conscious births, as more healthcare providers witness the profound benefits of supporting the birth trance, and as research continues to validate the importance of honouring this altered state, we inch closer to a paradigm shift.Ā 

    Each positive birth experience, each converted practitioner, each published study acts like a pebble on a scale. Once reached, the tipping point could trigger a rapid transformation in how society views and supports birth. We might see a swift transition from birth as a medical event to birth as a holistic, consciousness-altering rite of passage. This tipping point holds the potential not just to revolutionise maternity care, but to profoundly impact how we understand human consciousness, the power of women’s bodies, and the nature of the transition into motherhood. Every effort to support and promote birth consciousness becomes vital, for it may be the pebble that finally tips the scale towards a new era of enlightened, woman-centred birth practices.

    The journey towards fully supporting birth consciousness in mainstream maternity care may be long, but it has begun. This shift not only has the power to improve birth experiences and outcomes but also to catalyse a broader societal rise in consciousness.

    A story of hope for the future

    A quiet revolution is taking place in birth rooms across the country. Gone are the days of stark, clinical environments and a one-size-fits-all approach. Instead, a new paradigm is emerging, one that honours the unique, altered state of consciousness that women can enter during labour.Ā 

    Picture Sarah, a first time mother, and her partner, Alex. To support her through the journey, she hires a doula, Zoe. Zoe enters the picture long before the birth itself. In the weeks leading up to Sarah’s due date, Zoe meets with Sarah and Alex regularly. She helps them understand the concept of birth-trance, explaining how this altered state of consciousness can profoundly affect Sarah’s birth experience. Together, they practise techniques that will help Sarah tap into this state more easily when labour begins.

    On the big day, Zoe arrives at Sarah’s home in the early stages of labour. She immediately sets about creating a soothing environment – dimming lights, playing soft music, and using aromatherapy to engage Sarah’s senses in a way that promotes relaxation and inward focus. She plays repetitive, trance inducing beats on her drum to further support Sarah’s entrance into labourland.

    As contractions intensify and Sarah begins to slip into her birth-trance, Zoe and Alex recognise the signs immediately. Her voice drops to a whisper, her movements become slower and more deliberate. Zoe gently guides Alex in supporting Sarah, showing him how to provide touch and verbal encouragement without disrupting Sarah’s focus.

    When the midwife, Maria, arrives at Sarah’s home, she’s also a familiar face, as Sarah has also been seeing throughout her pregnancy. Zoe works seamlessly with Maria. She shares Sarah’s progress and preferences with Maria, without Sarah having to break her concentration, ensuring that the environment remains conducive to the birth-trance state.

    Maria herself is very aware of Sarah’s needs for quiet support, and she blends into the quiet and dimly lit space, addressing Sarah with gentle, reassuring whispers.

    During a particularly intense phase of labour, when Sarah begins to doubt herself, Zoe steps in. She reminds Sarah of her strength, using visualisations they had practised together. She resumes her intuitive drum beats to support Sarah’s brain waves in slowing down. Her calm, steady presence helps Sarah re-center and sink deeper into her altered state.

    In the pushing stage, Zoe and Maria work with Alex to physically support Sarah in her chosen birthing positions. They whisper encouragement, reminding Sarah to trust her body and her instincts.Ā 

    After the birth, Zoe and Maria remain present, maintaining the quiet, sacred atmosphere as Sarah and Alex bond with their newborn. They ensure Sarah is comfortable, and undisturbed during this precious golden hour.

    In the weeks following the birth, Zoe and Maria both visit Sarah at home. They process the birth experience together, helping Sarah understand and integrate the powerful altered state she experienced during labour.

    This collaborative model – a continuity of care one, where doulas work alongside midwives to support birthing women’s altered states of consciousness – is now the norm in maternity care. It’s an approach that recognises the profound psychological and physiological benefits of the birth-trance state, and actively works to create environments where this state can unfold.

    Weeks later, as Sarah reflects on her experience, she feels a sense of empowerment and awe. The birth wasn’t just about bringing her child into the world; it was a transformative journey, made possible by an environment that recognised and supported her ability to enter a unique state of consciousness.

    Home birth is also now considered the norm, as research shows that it is easier to enter the birth trance state in one’s own environment, and therefore safer for both mother and baby. For the rare cases where a more medicalised setting is needed, hospitals and birth centres have trained their staff in recognising and supporting altered states. They have redesigned their spaces to be more conducive to supporting them. And perhaps most importantly, they’re empowering women like Sarah to understand, anticipate, and advocate for birth experiences that honour this incredible capacity of the human mind and body. The revolution is quiet, but its impact is profound.Ā 

    Conclusion

    The journey through birth consciousness is a testament to the innate wisdom of the body and the transformative power of birth. The birth trance is not merely a biological curiosity, but a vital component of the birthing process with far-reaching implications for maternal and infant well-being.

    The stark contrast between the natural altered state of consciousness during birth and the practices of modern maternity care highlights a critical need for change. By understanding and honouring this unique state, we have the opportunity to revolutionise birth experiences, empowering women and potentially improving outcomes for both mothers and babies.

    The stories shared by mothers who have experienced this altered state underscore its significance. These accounts of transcendence, out of body experiences, connection, and empowerment reveal the deeply personal and often spiritual nature of birth when allowed to unfold naturally.

    As we move forward, it’s crucial that we continue to bridge the gap between scientific understanding and holistic practices. The work of researchers like Dr. Orli Dahan provides a foundation, and there is still much to explore and understand about the neuropsychological state of women during birth.

    Ultimately, recognising and supporting the birth trance is about more than just improving birth experiences. It’s about acknowledging the power and wisdom of women’s bodies, challenging societal norms that seek to control this uniquely female experience, and reclaiming birth as a transformative rite of passage.

    As we continue to unravel the mysteries of birth consciousness, we open doors to a more empowering, respectful, and holistic approach to birth. In doing so, we not only honour the journey of each birthing woman but also contribute to the evolution of human consciousness.

    Do you resonate? Did you have an experience of the birth trance? I’d love to hear what you think.

  • How to recover from a miscarriage

    How to recover from a miscarriage

    I am writing this to provide a blueprint for physical and holistic recovery after a miscarriage.

    Background

    There is very little nurturing support offered to women after they give birth to a live baby, and in particular, almost no support in terms of bodywork to help the body and spirit heal. When you lose a baby, this kind of support is almost non existent. This is one of the reasons I wrote my book, Why Postnatal Recovery Matters. In the book there is part that covers recovery after baby loss.Ā 

    When you have a miscarriage, especially when your baby dies before you have reached 24 weeks pregnancy, there is usually very little offered to support your physical and emotional wellbeing. Because losing a pregnancy before a baby is considered medically viable, once the medical aspect of the loss has happened, once the baby has left your uterus, no further support is usually offered. The taboo around the first trimester of pregnancy doesn’t help.

    As a culture we are notoriously crap at supporting grief, and in the case of a miscarriage, it is further impacted by the lack of consciousness around the fact that it can be a very significant loss, regardless of how many weeks pregnant you were. There is no “holding” from the community as there might be post loss. No people rallying round with nutritious home cooked food and just being there for you.

    It can leave you with emotions and feelings that have nowhere to go, both physically and emotionally. Furthermore, there is no guide or support given to help you recover from a more holistic point of view. The leaflets given in the hospital usually only mention the physical aspects such as cramps and bleeding, but not much else beyond that.

    I have had 4 miscarriages and I wish I had known about the importance of nurturing myself back then. I was given a week off work, and I went to miscarriage association meetings which I found very helpful, but I now know that there is much more that could have been done so support and soothe my heart and body.

    A simple guide about how to look after yourself when you have a miscarriage:

    First of all, if you experience a loss, regardless of what stage of your pregnancy you were at, you will be in a postpartum state. You deserve the same support as a mother who has given birth to a live baby. In fact you will probably need it more, as you may experience deep grief.

    If you lost your baby earlier in pregnancy you might feel that your loss isn’t valid. But you cannot measure grief by what it looks like on paper. Your grief can be as real as if your baby died when you just found out you were pregnant, or if your baby died when he was several months old.Ā 

    There are some wonderful charities like the miscarriage association that offer very helpful emotional support. I have listed organisations at the end of this post that can provide support. Here I want to focus on some of the things you can do to support yourself, and your body, as you recover.

    Postpartum recovery boils down to 4 simple areas: Social/community support, rest, food and bodywork. The tricky aspect is that it is likely that you will have no time to plan. I hope you can still use some of the suggestions made here.Ā 

    Social/community support

    • Friends, family, neighboursĀ 
    • Hired helpĀ  such as doulas, who can not only take care of things in your house but also provide much needed holding and validation of your emotionsĀ 
    • Online support (social media groups, WhatsApp groups…)Ā 
    • Gifts. If people ask what they can do to help, you could ask them to purchase you some of the things you need from the list below. You can make a list to suggest what you’d like: food delivery, doula support or massage vouchers etc
    • Reach out to people for support. Many want to help but they just don’t know what to do or do not want to intrude. Ask for what you need. It might be different each day.

    Rest

    • Take time off work/ask for compassionate leave (this is only if doing this would help, some people find it easier to keep working). If this isn’t possible (for example if you work for yourself), try to slow down as much as you can.
    • Help with household (chores, cooking, cleaning, other children etc.)
    • Make a list of potential helpers for the above.Ā 
    • Take naps/ slow down
    • Relaxation: use relaxation techniques and appsĀ 

    Food

    • Make a list of people who can make/deliver you some food/ or ask someone to organise a meal train
    • Get food delivered (supermarkets, takeaway meals, frozen, fresh, meal boxes)
    • Eat foods that are warm, comforting, and which contains warming ingredients, lookup for typical postpartum foods, such as this Chinese postpartum soup.
    • Nutritious snacks and warming drinks.

    Bodywork

    • A massage/postnatal with someone who is sensitive to your needs
    • A closing the Bones ceremony
    • An appointment with a womb massage therapist
    • Work with a specialist manual therapists (osteopaths, chiropractors, and pelvis health physiotherapists)
    • Wrap your hips/abdomen
    • Keep your body warm by wearing layers/hot water bottles

    The Importance of Bodywork

    I want to expand on the bodywork aspect as I know it’s the most neglected one of the 4 categories. We literally offer zero bodywork after the birth of a live baby, and it doesn’t even enter most people’s consciousness to offer this after a miscarriage or stillbirth.

    I have been giving a postpartum massage ritual called closing the bones to new mothers, both post live birth and post loss for over 10 years, I know how important and healing this ritual can be. I have lost count of the times women have told me ā€œI thought I was just getting a massageā€ after receiving a closing the bones ceremony post loss.Ā  I have given this ritual to my own mother on the anniversary of the stillbirth of my little brother, over 40 years after birth, and it was very very significant and healing for us both.

    Symbolic Rituals and Objects

    Symbolic rituals and objects can be powerful ways to help process your emotions. I had a Jizo doll, inspired by a Japanese deity for pregnancy loss, made to represent and honour the loss of my babies. Some people make miscarriage jewellery. Some of my clients have written a letter to their baby, done a letting go ritual (for example by burying something), or made a small altar with a candle.

    Loss involves shock, and I was reminded of this recently, when I gave a closing the bones massage to a friend who had been in a car crash. She wasn’t physically hurt but she was in shock. After the ritual she was visibly calmer, softer, and more together.

    After a miscarriage, and any pregnancy loss, your body will be in need of healing and nurture. Giving your body this space will also help you process the grief. It will give you a space to honour your emotions, and give your body a change to regulate to a place of relaxation and safety.

    I wrote this blog post about how closing the bones can help with baby loss, and here are a couple of stories that poignantly express how meaningful it can be.

    ā€ I came along to the Closing the Bones Training about a year after my baby had died. Towards the end of the ceremony, as I was being rocked deep shudders started going through my body and as the rebozo was pulled tight around my pelvis I felt a huge emotion that even now I am not sure what to call it. It felt as though the protective bubble I had formed around myself moved away and with that my baby – as if I was releasing him. Sobs racked my body all the grief, the anger, the exhaustionĀ  all the disbelief of what had happened came pouring out. I hadn’t realised how much I was holding on to. I felt the women form a circle around me and felt what it was like to have a safe space held for me, allowing me to just be there in my wild tumult of emotion. I heard someone singing the most beautiful song and someone stroking my hair, hands touching me sending love and supportā€œ. RosieĀ 

    ā€œHaving the closing the bones massage helped me to accept my baby’s loss and start to move forward and also forgive my body and let go of all the negative feelings.ā€ Claire

    Wrapping for Comfort and Healing

    Bodywork wise, one thing you can do for yourself is wrap your hips and or belly, both to keep your core and womb warm, and help you feel more contained.

    WrappingĀ  makes you feel held and protected. It also helps to feel more present in your body, which is grounding and can reduce anxiety and stress. There is something about being wrapped that feels very primal, like a baby in the womb, or a baby being swaddled. The calming effect is a mix of being able to feel the contours of your body, and also being reminded of the primal sensations of being in the womb.

    Interestingly I have found (and others have too), that wrapping helps support my mental health. I think this has to do with both the feeling contained and the more energetic/protective aspect. In this blog post a woman describes how head wrapping helped her with anxiety, and my experience with pelvis/belly wrapping feels very similar.

    On a spiritual/energetic level, wrapping it helps you to feel grounded, return to your centre, feel less ā€˜open’ and gives a sense of protection. In many indigenous cultures, protecting the womb with a belt is a common practise for these reasons.

    I have written a blog about wrapping for wellbeing which contains a simple tutorial, and also one about postnatal wrapping, which has links to a range of tools you can use for this purpose, from scarves, to velcro wraps, to clothing, and Japanese inspired waist warmers called haramakis.

     

    Support Organizations and Resources (UK)

    Here is a list of organisations and resources for support in the UK after a miscarriage

    Charities and organisations

    This charity provides memory boxes for different stages of pregnancy, including early pregnancy.

    Books

    A long list of links about other organizations here

    Articles

    Miscarriage Recovery Plan Template

    I have made this simple miscarriage recovery plan template which you can download, print, and share, to use as a way to list what you might need and what help to ask for. Feel free to print it so that you can jot down ideas.

    In conclusion

    Recovering from a miscarriage requires tending to the physical, emotional, and spiritual needs of the whole person. By building a support network, allowing for space and rest, nourishing the body with warming foods, and incorporating nurturing bodywork practices, women can create the space for processing grief and facilitating holistic healing after pregnancy loss. The suggestions provided offer a compassionate blueprint for this often overlooked but deeply meaningful journey back to wholeness.

    I hope this helps and if you try any of the ideas suggested above I would love to hear from you.

     

  • The Power of Persistence: Changing Illogical Rules within maternity care

    The Power of Persistence: Changing Illogical Rules within maternity care

    Twenty years or so ago, when I was swimming daily at my local public swimming pool, I managed to change the rules to allow the use of training fins.

    Prior to this, the pool had a blanket ban on the grounds of “safety”, whilst also allowing the use of hand paddles. Hand paddles are often made of hard plastic, and people use them ahead of them as they thrust forward, therefore they are, in my opinion, much more likely to cause a potential injury to another swimmer,Ā  than short training fins, which are made ofĀ  soft silicone rubber, and trail behind a swimmer.

    Keen to start improving my swim training drills by using fins, I discussed it with one of the managers by the pool side and he agreed to change the rules. That’s all it took, and I guess that not many people who use fins to train in this pool know how it got changed.

    Fast forward to today: about a month ago I joined a new gym/pool place nearer to my home. I went in as a guest of a friend who is a member and used my fins without issues. I decided to join because the pool, though not as nice as the private gym I had been a member of for year, was nice enough, much closer to my home, and much cheaper.Ā  It was only after I joined as a member that another lifeguard told me it wasn’t allowed, citing once again the safety risk. I challenged the rule’s logic as someone was swimming in the same lane using very large hand paddles. I explained the lack of logic in terms of risks. But this lifeguard was insistent that rules are rules, and was not interested in engaging in logical debate, even inventing reasons on the spot to justify the decision (something I’ve seen happen a lot in my work as a doula-more on that later).

    So I accepted that I would need to train without my beloved fins for now, since I had already joined this gym. However I also remembered my experience as the previous pool and knew that it was worth approaching the centre’s management. After all, I had nothing to lose by asking. I emailed the centre’s manager. Contrary to my 20 years ago self, I had grown in knowing that kindness often works better than bluntly pointing out the lack of logic in the rule. Instead, I expressed my surprise, explaining that I have been swimming for over 25 years in 6 different pools in Cambridge and that they all allow short fins. I also pointed out that I fully understood that not allowing the longer scuba style fins made sense in terms of safety (giving people a chance to see that I’m reasonable), but that I could not see the danger of the type of fins I used. I also made sure not to mention the hand paddles as the last thing I wanted was for them to ban them too.

    Amazingly, the manager replied to me within a couple of days, agreeing with me and telling me that they’dĀ  changed the rules. This morning I took great delight in bringing my fins to the pool. The delight went further than the fins themselves. I felt proud that I’d managed to change a rule that made no sense. This also felt doubly important because the gym in question is part of my local hospital, the one in which I attended births and MVP meetings during my 10 years as a doula. I knew from experience that hospitals tend to be sticklers for rules.

    Beyond the fin story, what I feel proud about and why I am sharing this, is that it take not take much to change the rules, and it has benefitted many people. It only takes one person to change silly rules that would otherwise remain. I’m allergic to rules that do not serve humanity and have no joined-up logic behind them. I’d like to encourage you to do the same.

    During my ten years as a doula, I also learnt that there are techniques that work better than other when trying to change rules, in order to avoid being met by the typical responde of “I’m obligated to operate within the boundaries set by the existing rules”. Here’s what I’ve learnt from trying to change rules in my local maternity hospital:

    • Find a champion

    It’s much easier to change things if you can find someone who works within the system, and who shares your vision for change. This is how I got to train the NICU nurses in learning to use baby carriers, after banging my head against the system for years. The same happened when an NHS trust hired me to train their midwives in using rebozo techniques for labour.

    • Use competitive pressure

    What helped me convince my local hospital to allow partners to stay overnight in the induction and postnatal wards, after banging my head against it without success, was mentioning the number of other hospitals nearby who were already doing it.

    • Stretch their minds

    When the subject of cord ties was brought up in an patient advocacy meeting, because doula clients were often meet with plain refusal (by people misunderstanding that guidelines are not the law, and always choosing to abide by ā€œthe rulesā€),Ā  most of the staff looked like we were crazy. I realised that they needed to stretch their minds a bit more, so I said ā€œand have you heard of cord burningā€ then spent a few minutes explaining what it was. After that they seem to think that the cord wasn’t so crazy after all. In the same way I have sometimes encouraged clients to ask for something outrageous that they had no intention of actually doing in their birth plan, in order to appear to be negotiating down. I’ll never forget the expression on the face of the consultant when my VBAC client, pregnant with twins, told him she was thinking of having them at home.

    • Call their bluff

    I have helped several doula clients get offered something they were told was not possible this way. I was granted access inside the hospital with a repeat birth client despite lockdown restrictions only allowing one birth partner, by my client writing to them that she’d stay at home instead of going to the birth centre if I wasn’t allowed in. I also had a client 43 weeks pregnant gain access to the birth centre by using the same strategy.

    • Pretend to follow the rules

    I’ve found that if a pregnant woman says something like ā€œIf I haven’t had the baby by x date I’ll have a caesareanā€ instantly removed the pressure of induction of labour. It doesn’t mean that you cannot change your mind again should said date comes and goes….

    I haven’t always been successful. On one occasion my attempt at changing the rules backfired. I was trying to encourage the hospital to change the illogical rule that only allows one partner inside the theatre. No doula was ever allowed in with her client and their partner (this rule was only bent once by a couple who were so assertive that they told staff they wouldn’t go in without me), and they used ridiculous claims of ā€œlack of spaceā€ (whilst allowing in students and private phlebotomists from cord banking companies), or ā€œsafety of mother and babyā€ (how exactly would a doula compromise this?). When I look back I could have gone about it in a more clever way (citing other hospitals doing it, and asking staff for the best person to talk to), and my discussions with the head of the delivery unit and the consultant anaesthetist resulted in not only no change to the rules, but a memo being circulated reminding everyone of the rule.

    It always baffles me when people follow rules without questioning them, or wondering if they are based on solid evidence, and simply do as they are told. I guess questioning things and tenacity are my blood. I also have a very strong sense of justice and deep aversion to rules that do not serve humanity or make no sense.Ā  I really like to support others in doing the same.

    With persistence, kindness and strategic approaches, we can all be change agents – questioning unreasonable rules and advocating for what makes sense and serves humanity.

    Does this resonate? Have you successfully changed rules, or banged your head against systems that refuse to change? Please comment below.

  • The wisdom messenger podcast: An interview with Aimee Hamblyn, reclaiming your power and sovereignty

    The wisdom messenger podcast: An interview with Aimee Hamblyn, reclaiming your power and sovereignty

    In this show, I interview pioneers in women’s health and personal development about ground-breaking concepts that help women reclaim lost knowledge and inner wisdom.

    By bridging insights from ancient traditions and modern research, we’ll question stale cultural narratives and midwife a new paradigm around birth, life transitions, and women’s autonomy. Join me as we delve into stories and studies that empower women to reconnect with their inner voice.

    In this episode, I interview Aimee Hamblyn.Ā Aimee is a doula, doula trainer and Energy-Lift Healer. Working with families since 2010, initially as a breastfeeding peer support and body work practitioner, focused on the post partum period. Always fascinated by observing how bringing the body into a state of deep peace, brings about healing on many levels.Ā After experiencing the profound personal transformation in her own life, Aimee studied with Shakti Durga in 2012, to train as an Ignite Your Spirit practitioner to support her own clients.

    Aimee works with her clients using Shakti Durgas’s healing modality Ignite Your Spirit; this practice helps to heal past traumas, clear negative thought patterns, and clean & uplift the energy field.Ā  This happens through connecting clients with their own inner light, wisdom and innate power to heal. Clients are uplifted and experience transformative life changing experiences.Ā 

    As part of her dedication in the birth space, she also trains doulas with Developing Doulas. As well as running an annual mentoring container for birth professionals, ā€œSacred Birthā€, supporting those working with families during the perinatal period to open to the energetic and soul dimensions of their work.

    Highlights include:

    1. Aimee discusses her spiritual journey and influences, including her upbringing, exposure to various religions, a pivotal trip to India, and her father’s passing.
    2. We explore different types of healing abilities, with Aimee sharing about her clairvoyant visual abilities that have evolved over time.
    3. We discuss the concept of Ignite Your Spirit therapy that involves meditation, visualization, and clearing/filling the energy body to tune into one’s intuitive languages.
    4. Aimee introduces the idea of reclaiming wounded parts of oneself and integrating them into the present as part of the healing process.
    5. We talk about a cord cutting practice to detach from emotional ties with others one is no longer willing to carry. Aimee incorporates this into her work with clients.

    Can you listen to the episode onĀ Spotify,Ā Youtube, orĀ Apple Podcast

    You can find Aimee at

     

  • Why I created a podcast called The Wisdom Messenger

    Why I created a podcast called The Wisdom Messenger

    I just launched a new podcast. It took me a while to decide on the name because I wanted the name to reflect the eclectic range of topics that I intend to cover. I didn’t want to niche myself. I’m a multi-passionate person with a multilayered, forever evolving business (the official name is a polymath but I find that term too dry), and therefore the podcast needs to reflect this.

    I’m a sharer. I always have been. It’s in my name after all, Sophie is the French version of the Greek name Sophia means wisdom, and Messager means messenger in French. If you know me you know I can talk the hind leg off a donkey. I share because I want to help make the world a better place. I started blogging in 2015 and I’ve written about 200 posts, with an acceleration at a rate of a post every week or every other week since 2021. I published my first book, Why Postnatal Recovery Matters in 2020. The book has now been translated into 2 other languages, and soon will be available in a third. I’m writing my second book about how drumming can support the birth journey and life transitions.Ā 

    For every person or family who reads my writing and feels heard, supported and helped by it, I feel I’m achieving my soul purpose.

    Over the last couple of years I’ve discovered that consuming knowledge via audio works better for me than reading, because I can listen whilst doing other tasks such as driving, or cooking. It has changed long boring drives into transformative moments. I’ve got a Bluetooth speaker in my kitchen and it has transformed prepping meals from something tedious into something I’m looking forward to. I’ve listened to countless books and podcasts episodes, and it’s a great way to feed my ADHD hyper focus when it drives me to explore new topics in extreme depth.

    So it makes sense that I chose to share my stuff via audio too. I didn’t do it sooner because I didn’t know how and I thought it would be really complicated. Mastering new tech is my nemesis, and I often procrastinate for ages when an element of this is involved. I am very grateful for authentic business coach George Kao, because last week I started his new course called Interview Mastery, and it gave me the impetus to start the podcast.

    Once I started, I realised (this has been true pretty much every time I’ve procrastinated over tech stuff) that the process was actually a lot easier and faster than I had expected. I like to compare processes to giving birth, with conception, gestation, birth and the postpartum (read my post about this here). I had a long conception and gestation, then the birth had some stop starts (mastering adding music to the beginning and end of the episodes took a lot of trials and errors, it felt like a stop start labour!), but in the end it was a fairly speedy, smooth and joyful birth. I’m now basking in the afterglow of high oxytocin and dopamine.

    My signature approach, what I feel I am really gifted at, beyond sharing stuff, is bridging the scientific and the spiritual. I feel humanity is at a crossroad and unless we re-learn to become connected to each other, our inner wisdom, and the planet, we are headed for extinction.Ā 

    In this podcast I am going to share conversations with pioneers in women’s health and personal development to reclaim lost knowledge and restore inner wisdom. I want to help bridge insights from ancient traditions and modern research, question stale cultural narratives and midwife a new paradigm around birth, life transitions, and women’s autonomy. Expect stories and studies that empower women to reconnect with their inner voice and live their truths, to fully trust ourselves and shape our collective future.

    With this in mind, what better first guest could I have asked for than Jane Hardwicke Collings. Jane is a grandmother, former homebirth midwife for 30 years, a teacher, writer and menstrual educator and the founder of the school of Shamanic WomanCraft. Join us as we discuss how drumming can support the birth journey. Highlights of this episode include how making a drum can provide the medicine a woman needs during pregnancy birth and life; Jane’s own birth story and how drumming helped her experience an ecstatic birth; how drumming can help us communicate with our babies during pregnancy, and can effectively reduce pain during birth, and how it can help us connect with our great great grandchildren to know what do to now change the world to become a better place.

    My podcast is called The Wisdom Messenger, a literal translation of my name. You can find it on Spotify, Apple Podcast and YouTube.Ā 

    I would love to hear what you think of the first episode, and also please get in touch if you fit the description of my ideal guest and would like me to interview you.

     

     

     

  • Birth: changing the paradigm

    Birth: changing the paradigm

    When I attended my last birth as a doula, it was such a stark example of how broken, dehumanised, and beyond repair maternity care is in the UK. The woman I was supporting, having planned a homebirth, transferred to the hospital for an emergency caesarean. The surgical birth was needed, and this wasn’t an issue. What shocked me, despite 10 years of experience as a doula, was the total absence of humanity displayed towards her and her baby in the theatre. I wrote a poem about this called the maternity machine, which you can see me read here.Ā 

    Leaving birth doula work behind, after being so deeply embedded in the birth world for 14 years, has given me several things: some much needed distance and reflection space, and the freedom to express myself more fully. I’m still a birthworker, an activist, a writer and educator in the birth world, but not being at the coal face anymore was something I needed to do because it was harming me. I explain why I left in this blog.

    Throughout my years as a doula I experienced a lot of vicarious trauma when witnessing obstetric violence that is so deeply embedded within the system, that people within it cannot even see they are doing it (for instance, a doctor attempting to do a vaginal exam without even introducing themselves, talking to the mother, let alone gaining consent for the procedure). This isn’t the worst. I’ve witnessed appalling things and sometimes I’ve been more traumatised by what I saw than the mother was, because she had no idea that what had happened was completely dehumanising and unacceptable.

    I’ve noticed since I left how much this has impacted me personally and created such a deep distrust of medical care. Navigating the needs my of 2 neurodivergent children within a broken health and education system has not exactly supported rebuilding trust. Attending A&E for myself with a kidney stone a few months ago only reinforced this:Ā  a care assistant asked if he could take my blood pressure whilst I was bent over in agony and vomiting. When I refused, attempted to coerce me by saying that, if I let him do it, he might be able to ask for me to get more pain relief. I was too sick to use the appropriate expletives at the time but the parallel between this situation and what I had witnessed in maternity care was really striking.

    Putting space between myself and the system has given me much needed perspective, and time to think and reflect. Another reason I left doula work was because, as I approached the menopause (I still haven’t quite crossed that bridge yet despite being 53), I felt a deep sense of shift within myself. I felt the need to become an elder, holding the back of the battle line, rather than wielding the sword.

    Over the last few months I have become convinced that Western maternity care is damaged beyond redemption and that change will not come from within the system, nor from the thinking that created it. I have also become convinced that fighting against the system is no longer the solution.Ā 

    The rates of interventions are going up at the rate of knots, yet keep going up some more, defying logic and evidence, and yet still going up, whilst the system remains underfunded. Some UK hospitals have 47% induction of labour rates for first time mothers. How on earth are hospitals, already crumbling under the pressure, going to accommodate over half of women having their labour induced. We are headed that way sooner than you think. Some UK hospitals already have reached that rate for first time mothers. It’s not about to improve, and I expect it’s going to get a lot worse before it gets better.

    What we need is a completely new paradigm, a new system, emerging from outside the system and outside the thinking that belongs to the system.

    As a doula and birth educator, I often came across women who told me that they were planning to attend a meeting with an obstetrician armed with peer reviewed papers to justify their birth choices. I always reminded them that this wasn’t going to work in their favour, because the obstetrician would most likely try to pick holes in their research, and that they didn’t need to justify their choices, but stand firm in them.

    The same applies here. As much as I believe educating people that their choices are valid and that the guidelines are rarely as clear cut as presented by maternity care professionals (or even based on any solid evidence at all), this type of left brain, rational thinking, which is so pervasive in Western culture, is unlikely to provide solutions to the maternity care crisis we are finding ourselves in.

    What we need is to support women to stand in their power. The power that resides within themselves, in their ability to trust themselves and know what’s right for them and their babies, rather than abdicating knowledge and power over to the system. What we need is to support a feminine way of accessing knowledge.

    I know it’s easier said than done, and yet there are tools available to help support this. Over the last few weeks I have been gathering information about using shamanic drumming as such a tool. What interviewing women and birthworkers has shown me is that the change in consciousness provided by drumming can act as a conduit to access inner knowledge and power.

    I have taught a course to a group of pioneering birth workers, written several blog posts, one article for the International journal of birth and parent education (out in October), and an episode in the Fear Free Childbirth podcast. I am writing a book about it.

    Does this resonate? What other tools do you think our world needs right now to rehumanise birth? I’d love to hear your ideas.

     

     

  • The Myth of the Aging Placenta

    The Myth of the Aging Placenta

    Originally published in 2019, and updated in 2023 (see end of post for update)

    I am a birth educator. I also have a PhD in physiology of reproduction, and 20 years of research experience and I have a confession to make: I get REALLY irate when women get given poor quality evidence (or no evidence at all) in support of a recommendation for inducing labour.

    Whether I’m wearing my doula hat, or my scientist hat, I have to admit to getting really fed up with the growing epidemic of induction of labour for dubious reasons. This article is going to explore one of the most common stated reasons for induction of labour at term : The idea that labour should be induced before a certain point in pregnancy is reached because the ā€˜older’ placenta is not as efficient.

    I want to clarify one thing before we start: I am NOT anti induction, when it is justified by solid medical evidence and when a woman weighs up the evidence and decides that the risk of continuing the pregnancy is higher than the risk of inducing labour (like for example pre-eclampsia or reduced fetal movements, or when there are psychological reasons for the woman to choose to be induced).

    Over the last 15 years, between teaching antenatal classes and supporting women a a doula, I have heard and witnessed hundreds of stories of induction, the majority of which ended up being traumatic for the mother.

    In my area of work we often refer to this as the “car crash”, which goes something like this: 3 days of prostaglandin induction (often made more stressful because the woman cannot be with her family for much of the time), followed by 24 hours of syntocinon and a caesarean at the end for either fetal distress or “failure to progress” (if only women were told : We’re really sorry, we didn’t manage to get you into labour with our drugs, so now the only option is a cesarean, maybe women wouldn’t feel as traumatised as when they are labelled a failure. Language matters).

    I have listened and held women (and their partners) as they told me of their upset, their grief, their disbelief, lack of preparation and their feelings of failure.

    One of the top quoted reasons for inducing women when pregnancy goes beyond 41 weeks is the idea that the placenta somehow stops working after pregnancy reaches a certain number of weeks.

    The implication is that the placenta has a sell by date, like a piece of meat in the supermarket.

    Recently yet more papers have been published claiming as a fact that placentas “age”, “degrade” and “fail” in older mothers and after a certain number of weeks of pregnancy.

    I don’t normally like to write solely about science stuff these days. I like to write about how I feel about issues, and stick a few references in for people who want to read them. I spent 20 years doing scientific research in the academic and industry setting. I’ve moved on from this, I find most of the scientific world too dry and frankly, too blinkered.

    But I’m losing patience with this so-called science causing so much damage to women.

    I was very concerned a few weeks ago to watch a heated debate on social media about this topic; seeing many of my colleagues being gaslighted into believing the so-called science by people who claim to have all the answers, using jargon that they do not understand.

    I believe that my scientific background combined with my Ā experience as antenatal educator and doula gives me a unique, broad perspective on this topic.

    So it’s time to put my scientific hat back on, analyse the papers in question, and offer my rather alternative interpretation of the current evidence, so that women and birth workers can make truly informed decisions, not one-sided ones based on the opinions of a few so-called experts whose views are based on their existing belief and opinion rather than a considered weighing-up of the evidence in this area.

    I suggest you grab yourself a cup of tea, because this is going to be a long one!

    Before I start I want to make an important point: even experts in a field often disagree with one another.

    When I was working in the academic field during my PhD and 2 postdocs, working in a small niche area of biology research (clock genes, the genes which control rhythms, such as waking and sleeping), I published in fairly high ranking scientific papers, and became quickly perceived as an expert in my field. This led me to be invited as a guest speaker at conferences. I remember arguing until I was blue in the face about the interpretation of certain data with other experts in the field. It was done passionately, but it was entertaining, good humoured and fun. It happened because, as I will explain below, good scientists understand that science isn’t black and white.

    The conversations I see on social media about this research aren’t like this. I see experts pretending to have all the answers, presenting themselves as the only ones who have all the knowledge, and frankly bamboozling and bullying non scientists with jargon.

    In this particular case, they take the moral high ground, presenting themselves as saviours, as if stillbirths could be guaranteed to be prevented if only we induced all women at a certain number of weeks of pregnancy. They attack other people whose views are different, even when these people are equally or more qualified and hold PhDs in relevant fields.

    This isn’t right. This harms women, and this harms the people who are supporting them too.

    Even in science, things are never black and white. Nothing is guaranteed. There are many shades of grey. And pretending that things are this way isn’t science, it is delusion, and it is treating science as a dogma. If you want to find out more about this way of thinking, watch Cambridge scientist Dr Rupert Sheldrake’s banned TED talk on the topic.

    Now that’s out of the way, back to the subject at hand: do placentas really age? Do they stop functioning correctly towards the end of pregnancy? And most importantly, are they solely responsible for the (let’s remember, tiny) rise in stillbirth towards the end of pregnancy? These are the assumptions that currently underpin our induction policies.

    I feel I need to explain first that the risk of increased stillbirth at term, which is the main reason behind induction policy, is actually very small, rising from about 0.1% (1 in a 1000) at 40-41 weeks, to about 0.3% (3 in a 1000) at 42 weeks and about 0.5% (5 in a 1000) at 43 weeks (from this paper). TheĀ Cochrane review on induction beyond termĀ , found that induction before 42 weeks reduced the risk of perinatal death from 0.3% to 0.03%, and that the authors of the review concluded that:

    ” A policy of labour induction compared with expectant management is associated with fewer perinatal deaths and fewer caesarean sections. Some infant morbidities such as meconium aspiration syndrome were also reduced with a policy of post-term labour induction although no significant differences in the rate of NICU admission were seen. However, the absolute risk of perinatal death is small. Women should be appropriately counselled in order to make an informed choice between scheduled induction for a post-term pregnancy or monitoring without induction (or delayed induction).”

    In practice I almost never see the part highlighted in bold being presented as an option to women (read my previous blog about it here)

    I would like to quote the seminal paper by the late Dr Fox “Aging of the placenta

    ” A review of the available evidence indicates that the placenta does not undergo a true aging change during pregnancy. There is, in fact, no logical reason for believing that the placenta, which is a fetal organ, should age while the other fetal organs do not: the situation in which an individual organ ages within an organism that is not aged is one which does not occur in any biological system. The persisting belief in placental aging has been based on a confusion between morphological maturation and differentiation and aging, a failure to appreciate the functional resources of the organ, and an uncritical acceptance of the overly facile concept of ā€œplacental insufficiencyā€ as a cause of increased perinatal mortality.”

    Whilst I am fully aware that this paper is dated, having being published in 1997, and that much more research has been carried out since, I still believe his conclusion stands, the last sentence in particular.

    I’ve heard many maternity care providers coerce expectant mothers to accept induction (remember, if you feel coerced, this isn’t consent) to the cries of “your placenta is failing right now”. Yet, even today, we do not know what accounts for the tiny rise in neonatal mortality after 40 weeks.

    There seems to be a strong desire to prove the causality between placental aging and the increase in stillbirth and this desire is guided by a positive drive, which is to reduce stillbirth.

    I empathise with this drive better than you know, because my younger brother was stillborn so I fully understand the devastating effects the death of a new baby has on a family.

    But for the moment it’s just this: a theory.

    And anyone can invent a theory about anything, but that doesn’t make it true.

    We need to find a balance between the real statistics and women’s wishes for a positive birth experience. Because there is no doubt from the evidence in this area that, as long as mother and baby are well, it is better for all involved for labour to start on its own.

    Because we mustn’t forget that inductions can be very traumatic for women and they can cause fetal distress in babies.

    It’s quite simple, really: let the mothers decide what they want. And for this, they need real facts and numbers, not emotive coercion.

    First, a bit of history

    How did the whole concept of placental failure ever come about?

    In her book “Inducing labour, making informed decisions” , Dr Sara Wickham explains that this theory came about first via the work of Ballantyne who described a wasting condition of the newborn in 1902, followed by Runge in 1958 who coined the term placental insufficiency. This became known as the Ballantyne-Runge syndrome, and led to the assumption of a relationship between the length of pregnancy and placental failure.

    Dr Wickham goes on to explain that this theory has never been proven and that there is no evidence behind it. She explains that, while we know that some women’s placentas do sometimes fail to provide sufficient nutrients for their baby, this doesn’t mean that all women’s placentas routinely fail at a certain point in time.Ā  Further evidence of how much those who are challenging this theory really do care about the wellbeing of babies can be seen where Dr Wickham notes in her talks that the concern is not just about preventing unnecessary inductions for women who do not need them. By trying to make standardised, population-level recommendations (or a ā€˜one size fits all’ approach), we not only lead many women to have inductions that they do not need, but we may also fail to identify and help the small number of babies who truly do need help but at a point earlier than the current population-level cut-off point for induction.

    Even in the papers claiming that there is a relationship between the length of pregnancy and the state of the placenta, when you dig into them, the conclusion reached is always that there is a “possible link” rather than a proven one.

    And as I explained before, experts in the field do not agree with one another. In her book “Why induction matters“, Dr Rachel Reed quotes a couple of prominent papers, in particular a paper by Maiti et alĀ which claims a direct link between placental aging and stillbirth, and a paper by Mazzurato et al ” Guidelines for the management of postterm pregnancy” which states that:

    Although the fetal, maternal and neonatal risks increase beyond 41 weeks, there is no conclusive evidence that prolongation of pregnancy, per se, is the major risk factor. Other specific risk factors for adverse outcomes have been identified, the most important of which are restricted fetal growth and fetal malformations. In order to prevent PT (Post term) and associated complications routine induction before 42 weeks has been proposed. There is no conclusive evidence that this policy improves fetal, maternal and neonatal outcomes as compared to expectant management.”

    The nitty gritty of the arguments behind the aging placenta theory

    Some of the technical terms I see bandied around a lot, and which bamboozle many of my colleagues because they do not understand their meaning, are morphological changes in the placenta such as apoptosis, autophagy, syncytial knots, reduction in telomere length and so on. In many papers, the authors claim that these are key features of aging, and observed in post-term placentas.

    Yet there is more than one interpretation of these morphological changes so often lauded as proof of a placental ā€˜sell-by date’. They do not automatically mean that there is a problem. In many ways, our understanding of this area is in its infancy, and we would do better to take a position of scientific humility while we try to determine the meaning of these findings.

    One of the most striking examples of a study which makes suggestions that aging of the placenta at term is a fait accompli is this study, with its sensational title: “Evidence that fetal death is associated with placental aging” by Maiti et al.

    I find one of the statements in this paper extremely concerning:

    ” The known exponential increase in unexplained intrauterine death that occurs >38 weeks of gestation may therefore be a consequence of aging of the placenta and decreasing ability to adequately supply the increasing needs of the growing fetus. This knowledge may impact on obstetric practice to ensure infants are born before the placenta ages to the point of critical failure

    I fear such a statement will be used to pressure yet more women into being induced earlier, without any concerns for their personal decision or well being. And yet, as I will keep saying, this is still an unproven theory and different experts have different opinions about whether it is true or not. The medical profession is based on the tenet of ā€˜first do no harm’ and my understanding is that this means that we should not intervene unless we have good evidence to support doing so.

    I will go through clarifying the differential interpretation of some of the changes observed in the placenta.

    One of the changes they observe in this paperĀ is decreased autophagy. Autophagy is a kind of cellular recycling system. The authors infer that these changes are a proof of aging. Yes, autophagy decrease has been associated with aging in some studies. Some other authors, however, are suggesting that the reduction in autophagy in the placenta may be part of the process that actually starts labour and so it may be a normal and important part of a physiological process rather than a sign that something is ā€˜wrong’.

    Another placental change, quoted in the paper by Maiti cited above, is apoptosis (also known as programmed cell death). Apoptosis isn’t just a proof of senescence (aging). Apoptosis also happens during fetal development and during adolescence. It is as much as sign of change as it is a sign of ageing, and of course change and growth are very important at this time; the whole point of pregnancy is that the baby grows and changes

    “The role of apoptosis in normal physiology is as significant as that of its counterpart, mitosis. It demonstrates a complementary but opposite role to mitosis and cell proliferation in the regulation of various cell populations. It is estimated that to maintain homeostasis in the adult human body, around 10 billion cells are made each day just to balance those dying by apoptosis (Renehan et al., 2001). And that number can increase significantly when there is increased apoptosis during normal development and aging or during disease.”

    And during pregnancy

    “Trophoblast apoptosis is a physiologic event in normal pregnancy, increases with advancing gestational age and is higher in post- term pregnancies and therefore is considered as a normal process in the development and ageing of the placenta.”

    Again and again we see that the processes which are claimed by some to be evidence of aging could also be interpreted to be signs of the normal growth and change which are the very function of pregnancy.

    Syncytial knots (SNAs, an accumulation of cell nuclei (the centre of cells) inside placenta cells) are another change quoted as a proof of ageing:

    ” SNAs may form to structurally reinforce the placenta and minimise damage from shear stresses or other mechanical sources, reduce the proportion of nuclei in highly active vasculo-syncytial membranes or result from cell turnover in the placenta without an apoptotic trigger or shedding process. Ultimately, a better understanding of the processes leading to SNA formation will give insight into their significance in pregnancy complications.”

    So again, what we are seeing could just as well be an adaptation rather than a sign of ageing.

    Telomere lengthĀ :

    ā€œTelomeres, the DNA–protein structures located at the ends of chromosomes, have been proposed to act as a biomarker of aging. In this review, the human evidence that telomere length is a biomarker of aging is evaluated. Although telomere length is implicated in cellular aging, the evidence suggesting telomere length is a biomarker of aging in humans is equivocal. More studies examining the relationships between telomere length and mortality and with measures that decline with ā€œnormalā€ aging in community samples are required. These studies would benefit from longitudinal measures of both telomere length and aging-related parameters.ā€

    In this paper called “Questioning causal involvement of telomeres in aging” the authors state:

    “Multiple studies have demonstrated that telomere length predicts mortality and that telomeres shorten with age. Although rarely acknowledged these associations do not dictate causality. In addition, the causality hypothesis assumes that there is a critical telomere length at which senescence is induced. This generates the prediction that variance in telomere length decreases with age. In contrast, using meta-analysis of human data, I find no such decline. Inferring the causal involvement of telomeres in aging from current knowledge is therefore speculative and could hinder scientific progress.”

    What I find of particular interest, is that the authors of this paper also speculate that these cellular changes may form part of what starts labour:

    ” Placental senescence raises several important questions that need to be addressed experimentally. While fusion-induced senescence appears to be required for syncytiotrophoblast formation, it is likely that senescence of both fetal tissues and the maternal decidua play at least a part in determining timing of labour onset”

    So what if what is seen in the placenta and interpreted as a sign of aging, are in fact normal, healthy changes, which are a sign of healthy growth and development and which may also play a role in the start of labour?

    Another “older” sign of placental aging is calcifications. I’ve been guilty myself of believing people who told me it was a sign of ageing and it was good that the baby had been born because the placenta was “old”. I recently came across this blog (which has published references to back up all its claims):

    So while calcification of a placenta at term – around 39-42 weeks is part of the normal appearance of a full-term placenta and has no clinical significance in a healthy pregnancy, the appearance of significant calcification earlier in pregnancy is associated with risks to both the mother and baby. Just like we would be concerned about a very young person with wrinkles – it could be a sign of something significant happening (…) So, in essence, when a mother is healthy and full term, calcification and infarcts are normal features of a healthy placenta – just like your healthy mother has some wrinkles and a few grey hairs.Ā 

    Yet another myth blown out of the water.

    In conclusion, whilst there is evidence of cellular changes in the placenta throughout the course of pregnancy, there still isn’t any solid evidence to prove that it is indeed aging rather than an adaptation, or that these changes are truly accountable for the tiny rise in stillbirth when pregnancies continue beyond 42 weeks.

    The concept of the aging placenta is still just that, a theory. Unfortunately the majority of the publications cited in this post fail to acknowledge this, and take this theory as proven.

    What worries me even more, is that no consultation of women’s view on the induction process usually takes place, and these publications will form the basis of the new NICE guidelines, then the local hospital guidelines, and therefore more and more women will be induced needlessly, and have negative or traumatising experiences.

    This is underpinning a current trend towards inducing women even earlier, at 39 weeks instead of the current 41 to 42 weeks.

    Evidence based birth has produced an excellent review of the literature on this topic.

    I hope that reading this blog will help families and their supporters make informed decisions.

    I also would like to encourage scientists and policy makers to stay curious about the wider picture and to engage more with pregnant women and their views on the induction process.

    Update August 2023

    Having reviewed more recent evidence since I published the blog in 2019, I still stand by what I wrote above. I cannot see anything in the more recent literature that has changed. What strikes is that all the research is looking at proving that placentas age, but no one is looking at it from another angle: the fact that it made simply be changes, a process of maturation, necessary as part of the birth process. This is a case of culture leading science. As Dr Sara Wickham says :

    our modern culture is not very tolerant of the concept of aging generally, especially in women, so it is not that surprising that we so easily accept the idea that the aging placenta is unwanted and problematic.ā€

    A review paper in 2020 called “A review of the Evidence for Placental Ageing in Prolonged Pregnancy“, whilst it makes a case for the so-called aging, also states this in the discussion:

    Given the close relationship between placental structure, cell processes and placental function these changes would be expected to lead to a reduction in placenta function. However, we have not been able to identify any studies which have examined this link.”

    My review of the latest evidence led me to find a paper called Aging of the Placenta, published in the journal Aging in 2022. The paper contained the following paragraph :

    As gestation progresses, the placenta undergoes senescence. Generally, this process is necessary to detach the placenta from the uterine wall following parturition, eventually allowing blood vessels to close (to prevent haemorrhage) and the uterus to regain pre-pregnancy size and shape”

    I researched this and found publications that show that the very processes that the publications that talk about aging describe: inflammation, apoptosis, may actually be part of the normal process the placentas need to do to detach.

    Therefore my suggestion that what is interpreted as aging may be a normal physiological and maturation process now has some evidence behind it.

    This also made me wonder: If we induce labour, may we be interfering with this maturation process, and would induction results in more difficulties birthing the placenta? Reading around this subject shows that induction of labour is a known risk factor for retained placenta.

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  • Push back: challenging the alarming rise of non-medically indicated inductions

    Push back: challenging the alarming rise of non-medically indicated inductions

    A couple of days ago, I got a call from a woman in early labour. Her waters had broken a few hours before, and she was having mild contractions. She wanted to give birth at home, and was reluctant to let her midwife know about her waters breaking, because she knew that after 24h, there would be pressure to go to the hospital to induce labour. I reminded that it was her right to choose to stay at home, even if induction was offered. I also explained that she could either tell the truth (and be prepared to stand her ground), or chose not to, if having to argue during labour felt like too much.Ā 

    She went into established labour shortly after our call. When her midwife arrived, she told her that her waters had broken 3h prior. The midwife said that she needed to transfer her to the hospital immediately for induction because, she said ā€œyour waters are GONE and there is a high risk of infectionā€.Ā 

    This woman was a second time mum, and was having strong contractions every ā…” minutes at this stage. She refused to transfer, insisting she wanted to give birth at home. The midwife left shortly afterwards, saying that she wasn’t in established labour. Five minutes after the midwife left, the woman started to push. She gave birth at home in the end, and the midwife came back, but what should have been a beautiful and joyful experience left her feeling angry and stressed instead.

    The induction coercion

    Over the last few weeks, I supported several births even though I’m not officially working as a doula anymore. People find me and I just can’t leave them without support in such a damaged system. Everytime I find myself supporting people, it is because they are being coerced by the system. In some cases I do home visits, officially to offer techniques for labour, but in reality I spend most of my time reminding people of their human rights.

    The women I supported recently were either ā€œlateā€ to give birth, having a long prodromal labour, or had their waters break before contractions started.

    What was the answer to all of these situations? You guessed it, induction of labour.

    What prompted me to write this was the extreme unusual circumstance of the birth in the intro paragraph. The midwife who turned up at her homebirth was adamant that she needed to go to hospital to be induced, but there was no clinical rationale to do so, even within the very tight hospital guidelines.

    In my nearly 15 years in birth work, I had never heard something as ludicrous. I suspect the midwife was a delivery unit midwife sent to cover for community midwives, and that she was not feeling safe supporting a homebirth. When this had happened in the past, and I saw spurious reasons used to suggest hospital transfer, at least there was some tiny something that was outside of guidelines, like an increased temperature 0.5 degrees over the upper limit. But here there was none, zero, nada.

    The rise of induction of labour

    When you have been around this field for as long as I have, you can see trends in plain sights.

    Birth centre rates are dropping. In my local hospital, when the birth centre opened in 2012, the goal was that 30 to 40% of all births would take place there. In 2014, the rate of labour started in the birth centre was over 30%, and 25% of births taking place there. Based on the last 3 years of infographics, the current birth centre rate is only 13%.

    Homebirth rates are also at an all time low. Before my local birth centre opened, the local homebirth rate was 6%. It is now below 1%. This is despite plenty of evidence showing that homebirth, for healthy pregnancies, is as safe as hospital birth, and with a much lower rate of intervention than in the hospital (90% chance of vaginal birth at home versus 58% in an obstetric unit, for the same category of low risk women). When the birth place study was published in 2012, I rejoiced thinking that we would see homebirths and birth centre births skyrocket. Instead, the exact opposite has happened.

    This means that 85% of births are taking place inside an obstetric unit, an environment completely ill-suited to supporting the physiology of birth. Bright lights, no curtains, noise, tiny cramped rooms with no ensuite bathrooms, and staffed by people who have become deskilled at supporting physiological birth.

    This also means that the percentage of women going into labour naturally is only 47%, the rate of vaginal birth is only 47%, and the rate of caesarean birth is 41%.

    We are in the midst of an epidemy of unjustified induction of labour. With the recently updated NICE induction of labour guidelines, it is only going to get worse. My local hospital had an induction rate of 38% in their last infographic, and with the new guidelines making induction happen earlier in pregnancy, because induction doubles the change of having a caesarean, it is likely to be over 50% within the next few years.

    Logically, it makes no sense.Ā  It is not biologically possible that less than half of women are able to start labour by themselves or give birth vaginally.

    Scientifically it makes no sense, because the main reason to induce labour is to avoid stillbirth, yet rates have remained the same over the last ten years, despite rates of induction in the UK going up from around 21% to 34% on average (the latest UK maternity statistic available are from 2021, I suspect it’s already higher than this now).

    The trauma induction causes

    Induction of labour is not a benign intervention.

    Recent research shows that induction can cause harm to both women and children

    • “Women with uncomplicated pregnancies who had their labour induced had higher rates of epidural/spinal analgesia, CS (except for multiparous women induced at between 37 and 40 weeks gestation), instrumental birth, episiotomy and PPH than women with a similar risk profile who went into labour spontaneously.
    • “Between birth and 16 years of age, and controlled for year of birth, their children had higher odds of birth asphyxia, birth trauma, respiratory disorders, major resuscitation at birth and hospitalisation for infection.”
    • “IOL for non-medical reasons was associated with higher birth interventions, particularly in primiparous women, and more adverse maternal, neonatal and child outcomes for most variables assessed.”

    Induction of labour can also be long, painful and traumatising. This isn’t explained to family when this option is ā€œofferedā€. Nobody explains that it might take 5 days and you have about 50% chance to end up with a caesarean at the end. Nobody explains the process in detail, and the fact that the hospital is so busy, that they often stop the process half way through because there is no space in the obstetrics unit, leaving women in the ward, in limbo, sometimes for as long as 3 days. I wrote about this in my article, Induction of labour, do you know what you’re letting yourself in for?

    Families I’ve supported have sometimes gone home for 24h in the middle of an induction, so they could rest, because nothing was happening. They were told off for this, told this was dangerous. Yet they were just being parked there, to quote a local midwife, ā€œlittle cattleā€.

    How to push back

    The system is so unfit for purpose, and the level of coercion is so rife within it (it’s gotten much worse since 2020 and this was one of the reason I stopped working as a birth doula) that whenever families call me for support, I have to tell them how to counter coercion with extremely assertive statements, lies, or legal threats. This is so wrong.

    Educating yourself or people you support about your human rights, and reading or listening to people who look at the research and challenge medical guidelines, especially when they are harmful, can really help you feel stronger in sticking to what’s right for you.

    My blog is full of articles on the subject. I also love both Dr Rachel Reed, her midwife thinking blog, her book about induction, and her podcast the Midwives’ Cauldron (there is an episode where I talk about the postpartum), and also Dr Sara Wickham, her blog, newsletter and many books, including What’s right for me.

    A new model

    Change will not come from within the system. Reading the book Closure really cemented this. I am no longer willing to waste my precious time and energy trying to make change happen from within. I have given 10 years of my life to maternity patient committees. It was an incredibly frustrating experience. I used to feel bad because I mistakenly believed that things didn’t change because I didn’t work hard enough.

    I recently listened to podcasts from Australian midwife Jane Hardwick Collings. What is happening to women during birth, she said, is ā€œinstitutionalised acts of abuse and violence on women and babies masquerading as safety.ā€

    This really hit me hard. I had to pause and rewind and re-listen this sentence as I let it land. Because it felt so hard, and yet so true.

    In my work I have heard and seen it so many times. The coercion, the abuse, so many horror birth stories. I hold trauma from witnessing these. It’s so ingrained that people inside the system do not even see it.

    Over ten years ago, traumatised by the second birth I supported as a doula, I read Marsden Wagner’s paper, Fish can’t see water: The need to humanize birth in Australia. The paper was published in 2000, and yet everything he wrote is still true:

    Ā ā€œHumanizing birth means understanding that the woman giving birth is a human being, not a machine and not just a container for making babies. Showing women – half of all people – that they are inferior and inadequate by taking away their power to give birth is a tragedy for all society. On the other hand, respecting the woman as an important and valuable human being and making certain that the woman’s experience while giving birth is fulfilling and empowering is not just a nice extra, it is absolutely essential as it makes the woman strong and therefore makes society strongā€

    Tricia Anderson wrote her article, Out of the Laboratory: Back to the Darkened Room

    Ā in 2002, and her conclusion is also more apt than ever:

    ā€œSadly most midwives and doctors working today have trained and worked for most of their lives in that laboratory: and in that laboratory – which is of course, a modern consultant maternity unit – childbirth is a mess. In this day and age of evidence-based practice, we talk so much of the importance of evaluating every intervention. Yet, no one is saying that we desperately need to evaluate the biggest intervention of them all – asking women in labour to get into their cars and drive to a large hospital where a stranger takes care of them.ā€

    I used to try and make change happen from the inside, now my perspective has changed, I want to use my precious time and energy to facilitate change from outside the system. To help people stand up to institutionalised abuse. This is why I still support families, this is why I share rebozo techniques.

    When I receive quotes like these, I know I am making a difference:

    ā€œMy daughter is a week old and my wife’s labour went like this: contractions started at 6am one morning and at 9pm our midwife came to see us and my wife was only 1cm dilated. She said baby wasn’t in a great position and that we would wait until morning to see how things were going. Before she left she mentioned about ‘rebozo’ which we had both never heard of.

    This led to us searching for the technique where we stumbled upon your website. A quick look at one video and a bit of information I attempted this on my wife. The next contraction she had we heard an audible clunk and her water broke. Contractions instantly got longer and stronger. This was about 10pm and 2 hours later we were holding our baby girl. Dan

    This is why I write articles like this one, or like The Myth of the aging placenta. This is why I am currently teaching about using shamanic drumming to support pregnancy and birth. Because once a woman has, through the change of consciousness that drumming helps facilitate, communicated with her baby repeatedly, she has access to her intuitive knowledge and power. She knows she doesn’t need a machine to connect with her baby, and is therefore not likely to let an ā€œexpertā€ stranger dictate what she should do.

    There is change brewing, and people are starting to take matters into their own hands. As my Chinese husband says, when you push the pendulum too far one way, it always swings back the other way.

    I invite you to look at things from a bird’s eye perspective, and ask yourself: what can I do to facilitate a shift. I would love to hear your ideas.

  • The Sound of Life: Making a Drum with Amniotic Membranes

    The Sound of Life: Making a Drum with Amniotic Membranes

    I’ve felt drawn to craft a unique instrument from the most primal source, the womb, for years now. It feels like a mystical calling – taking the amniotic caul that cushions a baby’s and giving it new sound and purpose. I’ve longed to feel the energy and listen to the drum beats rhythms these tissues might produce. To honour the mysteries of birth through percussion and song. Now, finally, I’m able to share the wonder of this dream realised. Of a drum birthed from the womb. The experience has resonated within me in ways deeper than expected. Let me tell you how it came to be.

    Last week, I was honoured to be invited into the sacred space of a friend after birth, just hours after she brought her baby into the world. As I held this tender space for the new family, listening to their birth story and first moments together, my heart swelled with the beauty of it all. I remembered at that moment how much I missed this aspect of supporting women through the birth journey.

    The exciting reason for my visit that day was to collect the placenta. For years I had dreamed of crafting a drum made from amniotic membranes, and my friend was generously letting me use her membranes for this magical purpose. I left eager to begin a powerful ritual, transforming this tissue that had nurtured new life into an instrument that would continue honouring the rhythm of life.

    The idea of crafting a drum from amniotic membranes had occurred to me 5 years ago. After reaching out to a few people whom I thought could help, I realised I had ventured into unchartered territory, as no one I asked seemed to know how what to do. The one doula I found who had made such a drum said that they broke after a few days.Ā 

    So I assumed it wasn’t possible and parked the idea for now. However, I set an intention to find a way, and gathered materials in the hope that this would become possible. I attended the birth of a friend in 2020 and we dried her membranes together in the hope of making a drum with it someday. I also saved another set of membranes in 2022, keeping it in my freezer until the time would be right.

    Ā Ā Fate put Melonie Syrett, aka The Drum Woman, in my path. I met Melonie a few years ago, and started attending her drum circles. I also did her sacred women drum circle facilitator training this year. In November 2022, Melonie shared the following on Facebook:

    ā€œSo, I’d like to share something hugely magical that happened recently. A friend of mine had a baby ‘en caul’ – born in the amniotic sac! What an auspicious occasion indeed.

    I arrived the next day and took the caul that had been stored in water in the fridge. Late that night, three of us sat together as I connected to this caul, like I would with a hide for a drum. I hadn’t ever felt anything like it. The energy in the bowl was fizzy, alive for sure, sparky.

    I tentatively held the sac. It was the hugest of honours. I opened it up and gently laid it over a small drum frame. I thought it would be slimy but it felt different… Wet, strong but super thin, barely there under my fingertips.I softly rolled the caul over the edges, trying to tighten and tension it over the frame, all the while quite fearful of it breaking.

    Once over as much as I could bear to pull it, I used some hide lacing to tie the caul in place and gently propped it up to begin its drying process.

    It was a huge honour to be asked to work with such precious materials. I’ve worked with nothing like it before and am so grateful I was asked to do so.And if you tap it, it has the best sound. It’s deep, like a heartbeat.ā€

    I spoke with both Melonie and Jessica (who gave birth to baby Evelyn, whose caul membrane was used to make the drum), and started working out how I could make a drum with the extra knowledge. Jessica shared that the membrane had been floating around in her birth pool, only noticed and picked up when they had emptied the pool. From this I concluded that rinsing the membranes may play a role in the lasting power of the drum.

    I also found the work of Colombian medicine woman Laura Torres in the French book ā€œAccoucher dans un Temazacalā€ (Giving birth in a sweat lodge). I saw on social media that she’d made such a drum. This gave me the idea to look for the Spanish version. Where the English or French searches had returned nothing beyond Melonie’s post,Ā  searching for Tambor de membrana amniotica returned several South American doulas, midwifes and medicine women who had made such a drum, usually using a coconut shell or a small hollowed gourd. Here are examples of such drums

    I even found an Instagram account called Tamborcito.de.placenta that seems to specialise in making such drums. I reached out to a few of these women, and one replied, explaining that she uses saline to rinse the membranes.Ā 

    After I collected my friend’s placenta, I set to work the very same day. It felt important not to set it aside, to work with it as soon as possible, still in the space of the magic I felt after visiting my friend.

    1. I laid the placenta out on a tray, and gently cut out the membranes (both amnion and chorion) with scissors. I immediately noticed how thin and smooth the amnio was, compared to the chorion which was more rough and ā€œmeatyā€.Ā 
    2. I then placed both membranes in a bowl of water. I had to change the water several times to remove all the blood, and despite this there were still little pockets of blood which I could not remove for fear of tearing the membranes. I suspect baby Evelyn’s drum is so clear and perfect because of the pool en caul birth, and the fact that her membranes never sat in coagulated blood like the ones I used.
    3. Whilst I rinsed the membranes, I held them, expressed my reverence, and asked them if they needed anything further to be honoured. They told me that the drum making was honouring enough.
    4. Whilst the membranes were soaking, I spent some time preparing small hoops (I ordered cheap toy drums online and removed the plastic head from them) and spent some time sanding them down to make sure no splinters would catch and rip the membranes.
    5. Finally I gently laid the membranes over the hoops, gingerly pulling on them gently to tension them over the hoops. I found it a challenging thing to do, as I wanted enough tension so the finished drum would resonate, and yet I also feared ripping the membranes if I pulled too much. The amnion was so thin and smooth, it did not need much to keep it in place, so I just used a piece of string, whereas the chorion, being heavier, needed something stronger to give it taught, so I used a leftover piece of horse hide lacing from my drum.
    6. I then propped them up on a tray and left them to dry for a few days. I was pleasantly surprised by how deep their sound was when I tapped them with my fingers (see videos below).

    In this video you can see the different steps I used to make the drums and also hear what the drums sound like.

    After a few days of drying, I tentatively and very gently tapped the drums with my fingers. I was amazed by how strong and deep the sound was, despite the small size of the drum. I own many drums, and the diameter of the hoop is usually indicative of the depth of the sound (the bigger the hoop the deeper the sound), and none of my drums of similar diameter sound near as deep as these drums. Both drums have a different sound and resonance. Here is the Amnion drum, and here is the Chorion drum.

    It has now been a week since I made the drums. The Amnion drum membrane cracked because I did not manipulate it carefully enough (it is VERY delicate, and I made the mistake to turn it face down on an outdoor wooden table to take a picture of the underside of it, and it cracked). My chorion drum is still intact and playable. Time will tell if it stands the trials of time. I know that Jessica’s drum is still intact, 8 months after her birth. She has shared with me that she keeps it wrapped in tissue a tin and manipulates it extremely gently when she wants to look at it.Ā 

    It has felt like a powerful , magical and huge honour to be trusted to craft such a drum with such a special membrane.

    Do you feel the call to craft such drums or offer them to mothers? How would you use such a special drum, and what would this drummaking process mean for you symbolically?