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I have a confession to make: I’m a scientist by background, but (shhh), I’m also quite into woo stuff.

Yes you read that right. On paper, when reading my bio, you might have picked me because of my PhD in biology. You find that reassuring, I get that. I would too. You might have chosen me over other practitioners who have a lot more alternative therapies listed on their website. You might have dismissed them as raving hippies. But you see, I am quite a bit of an undercover hippy.

Do you find this contradictory? Well for most people it is, so until recently I have shied away from showing that side of myself for fear of putting people off. So I had to control my face when you told me you wouldn’t pick someone who uses crystals. Because I do. Every day. In my house there are crystals in every room, and a crystal grid on the shelf above my computer right now as I type this. I use them for healing too, especially combined with doing Reiki healing-that’s right, I do Reiki too, that’s quite woo, I know.

The thing is, I love my woo side, I want to develop it, use more of it, and I want to use more of it with you. With the expectant mum who is scared about birth. I want to offer you more of my woo side, because you never know, it might be just what you need.

Don’t worry, I understand how confusing it feels. How come someone supposed to be an evidence based thinker believes in that shit. Because Reiki healing, crystal healing (and a lot of the other woo things I like to dab into like smudging, essential oils, flower essences, auric mists, and shamanic drumming to name a few), there are all just new age bullshit right?

I used to think that too, so I understand where you come from. Most of the alternative woo practises I love today, I used to dismiss as bullshit until very recently myself. I just didn’t get it. Then for some reason I found myself in a retreat where I experienced them and I was like, it’s rubbish. I’m sure it won’t work. And I was BLOWN AWAY!

I remember in particular one evening at the annual doula retreat, after an already quite alternative workshop involving shamanic drumming (I thought it wouldn’t work for me but I loved it so much I now own three drums-there is some actual science behind what drumming does to your brain-which is fascinating), someone brought in a large gong and said they were going to do a gong healing session. I thought: “gong healing? bullshit!”. But I was there so I gave it a go, and as we lied on yoga mats whilst this woman played the gong, I had the most amazing experience, my mind going into the deepest relaxed state ever, like being almost asleep but still completely aware of my surroundings (I have since read up on the topic and found that sound waves like these alter your brain waves patterns into an hypnotic state-more of the science behind the woo to come in another post). Afterwards I slept like a log, better than I had in many years, and woke up feeling incredibly refreshed and energised.

At the same retreat I also learnt an amazing postnatal massage of the hips called closing the bones, which has the most amazing healing effect on a new mother, as it is very nurturing but also helps her come back into herself energetically after the birth. It is a type of shamanic massage. I loved it so much that I ended up developing a closing the bones workshop and I have ended up training over 200 practitioners in this technique.

I want to reassure you that I won’t push my hippy practises on you-because the essence of doula support is that we adapt to our clients, because we want you to feel support in who you are and what you need. I will never try and steer you in directions where you don’t want to go.

But if you’d like to have a go, I would love to give you a Reiki session, make you a special energy mist for your birth, or give you a closing the bones massage after your baby has arrived.

You never know, it might blow you away 😉

This is the first of a series of posts on postnatal healing rituals for new mothers. I think that our culture sorely lacks rituals when it comes to nurturing new mothers, and I love reclaiming and sharing ideas around making new mamas feel special and cared for.

A couple of weeks ago I bumped into my friend Siobhan Taylor, a local independent midwife, at our hospital’s open day. On her stall, she had these gorgeous smelling little muslin bags, and she told me they were perineal herbal baths for new mothers. Siobhan kindly shared her recipe with me:

Lady’s mantle 1/2 cup

Lavender 4 cups

Black cohosh 1 tablespoon

hops 2 cups

chamomile 2 cups

ginger 1/2 cup

dandelion 3 cups

golden seal 1/2cup

comfrey root 1/3 cup (dried and very finely chopped or crushed)

willow bark 1/2 cup

marigold petal (dried, 1 tablespoon)

Siobhan added that it is recommended to add a couple of chopped cloves of garlic to the muslin bags (because of their great antibacterial properties), but that the bags do not smell as nice so not all mamas want the garlic added (you also have to add it at the last minute as it is fresh and would spoil is kept in the bag).

I wanted to make my own perineal soak bags, but I didn’t quite have all the herbs in Siobhan’s recipe. A google search brought many different recipes, so I decided to make my own recipe, a mix of both the recipe above and some I found online.

I used the following:

• 2 cups dried marigold : helps reduce inflammation and promote wound healing, also an antiseptic.
• 2 cups dried chamomile : has calming and antiseptic and anti-inflammatory properties.
• 2 cups lavender – has wound healing, calming, anti-bacterial, anti-fungal, anti-inflammatory, mildly analgesic properties. It also smells amazing, and helps with relaxation.
• a handful of crushed dried rose buds. Rose petals are astringent and can be used to staunch bleeding from scrapes and cuts. They make the bath more luxurious. Rose is sensual, and evokes the spirit of love in the heart and mind.
• 2 cups sea salt-antiseptic, helps the body remove toxins through the lymphatic system, brings relaxation to muscles and the entire body.

Mix your herbs and salt in a big bowl. Cut small square pieces of muslin and place a few tablespoons of mixture in the centre (depending on the size of your square). Tie with natural cotton string.

To use, place in bath or sitz bath, pour hot water only and leave to steep for 5 min, then add cold water until shallow comfortable bath is ready.

Sit and soak perineal area for at least 5 min.

Experiment and have fun with what feels right for you and the mama your are supporting.

I also think it makes a wonderful relaxing recipe for birth workers, I think I’ll have one in my bath tonight 🙂

I just wrote this guide to slings article for the Birthlight newsletter. Enjoy!

A couple of days ago, a doula friend published a blog post entitled “When did we become so blooming close minded“. It prompted me to finally write the “twin” post on kindness that I’ve been meaning to write for the last year or so.

I have noticed rather a lot of unkind comments, directed towards parents, on social media recently. This isn’t new. I am reminded of my other dear friend and babywearing consultant trainer Lorette Michallon and her story of a couple walking with a donkey. In the first picture, the woman is riding the donkey and the man is leading it. Two observers comment on how stupid the man is, because he could be riding the donkey himself. In the second picture, the man is riding the donkey, and the two observers remark on how selfish he is, because he could be letting his wife ride it instead. In the third picture, both the man and the woman are riding on the donkey, whilst the two observers moan about how selfish they are hurting this poor donkey. In the fourth picture, neither the man nor the woman are riding the donkey and the two observers comment on how stupid they are, for they have a donkey and are not riding it.

The morale of the story is, I guess, that people will always judge one another, whatever their choices. This is especially true when it comes to parenting. I don’t like it much but I don’t think there is much I can do about it. Or is there?

The most recent social media criticism I witnessed bothered me more than usual, because it involved professional parenting supporters criticising one another in a rather uncalled for, and unkind fashion. A famous babywearing consultant posted a picture of herself wearing her newborn being carried in a new French ergonomical buckle carrier and she was vilified by a large number of babywearing consultants for wearing the “wrong” carrier. The most flabbergasting thing is that she was being criticised vehemently by the people who are supposed to be supporting parents in their journey through parenthood. This doesn’t model good behaviour, and it worries me that if they treat their peers like that, then they are likely to treat parents in the same way, i.e. in a disempowering way, by telling them what “not to do”.

As Sue Gerhard said in her book Why love matters :’There is nothing to be gained in criticising parents’. You simply cannot educate, support and help people by being aggressive and denigrating them. True support, and true education, only comes from a place of kindness. Whilst I find it annoying when parents criticise each other aggressively on social media, I can forgive their ignorance. I cannot however, accept the same behaviour from my peers – from people who work with parents on a daily basis. Whether we are babywearing consultants, doulas, birth workers, antenatal or postnatal teachers, or any other profession supporting the transition to parenthood, we are privileged to support parents at such a vulnerable time. Such a privilege should be treated with the respect, and – dare I say it – sacredness, it deserves. We simply cannot treat people unkindly.

Our role is to serve, to support them to find their own ways as they navigate the exhilarating and scary waters of new parenthood (and not so new parenthood too) and the maze of conflicting advice and judgment.

We have a duty of care, a duty of kindness and compassion, and if what they do seems misguided to us, we need to understand that they are operating from a place of love, and the guiding must be ever so gentle and soft, because just like babies are precious and helpless, new parents hearts too are tender and fragile and deserve the same soft touch as new babies.

I feel very strongly that we pregnancy, birth, and postnatal professionals need to model kindness with one another, especially in the public eye on social media. How on earth are parents going to expect us to treat them with kindness and respect, and trust us to do so, if they witness the fiery wars of opinions which explode daily amongst us online for all to see? Let us have healthy and open debates whilst modelling nurturing, non-judgemental, respectful and kind behaviour. If we are going to change the face of interactions between parents on social media-it needs to start with us.

Yesterday Hannah Fearn wrote an article in the Independent on Doulas. I am usually a calm person but this article made my blood boil because it depicts doulas as money grabbing opportunists.

I have been working as a birth and postnatal doula for a couple of years. To follow this vocation, I left a scientific research career with a salary over 40k, and since I left, I haven’t yet earned enough money to pay tax. Women who choose to become doulas do so because it is a calling, no one does it for the money.

Why on earth would one want to leave a job with regular, predictable hours, and a guaranteed income to become a doula? Not for the convenience or money I can tell you.

When I was a scientist, I worked 9 to 5 four days a week. When my kids where ill I took (paid) days off. My husband knew what time I would leave home and what time I would be back. I was home in the evenings and at the week ends.

Let me tell you what life as a doula looks like:

Right now, I am on call for a birth and I have been for nearly 4 weeks. So for the last 4 weeks, my phone hasn’t left my side (even at night-and I often wake up a couple of times each night to check the phone hasn’t rung and I haven’t missed it), I haven’t been further than 30 min drive from my home (even when my family visited from abroad during the Easter holidays and I would have like to have taken them for longer trips out), I haven’t had an alcoholic drink, I have taken my car everywhere with me (just in case the client calls-instead of using my bike which would mean easier and cheaper parking), I have prepared and packed my doula bag 4 weeks ago (it has been in my car every since), I have had various backup childcare plans in place, various backup teachers too (I teach antenatal classes), and I generally live my life knowing that I might need to drop whatever I am doing at a moment’s notice to go to my client (even in the middle of a rare meal out with my husband, even in the middle of a cinema trip with my kids), which means I never fully relax. Finally, my mind is always on my client which means that my family feels that I am not always fully present to my family.

Do I miss the larger, more predictable income? Do I miss the regular, more predictable working hours? Yes. Do my husband and children find it difficult to cope with my being “somewhere else” in my head when I am on call for a birth? Of course they do. Do they find it difficult when I’m gone for a birth and they don’t know whether I will come back within a few hours or only 3 days later (yes this happens more often than you think!)-yes of course (and I am incredibly grateful for them to put up with it).

Do I regret leaving my scientific career behind? Not in a million years, because the pros of my new job far outweigh the cons. There is nothing quite so special as supporting new parents through the birth or their babies, and through their first few weeks postpartum. It is such a privilege, that I often joke to parents thanking me for my services that it feels to special to support them that I am the one who ought to be paying them. I have cried tears of emotion and joy several times over the last couple of years-something that never happened when I worked in science. It is worth it? YES YES YES! I wouldn’t change it for the world. This is my calling, this is what I’m on this planet for, this is what I am meant to do.

Don’t ever accuse doulas of being opportunistic money grabbers. I haven’t met one doula who is not doing this job tirelessly and selflessly. We are in it for the women, for the new families. We are doing this because we care deeply for them.